There goes another semester and another year!!!!!!!!!!!!~love you all lots=)

Another semester… and another year… another glimpse of my eye… so damn fast… Everything just go like normal… I’m getting older… haiz… Why do I have to get old…XD A lot of things happen in last semester… It started like a mess but thanks to WL, she helped me a lot to bring my days back to normal… thanks… before the semester finish, I transferred a lot of movie into my lappy… and I install FIFA2011 and Call of Duty into my lappy as well… And that’s the only thing that I gonna do in this semester break… This semester examination was abit crap… This is the first time I did so many silly mistakes in my papers… Hope I will get all my Aces…hope all my wishes come true… I wanna be a distinction student… Hmmmm… There is nothing much to talk about but I wanna make a summary for some of my loved ones…=)

Goldfish…
I do not know what to tell about this girl except than hahaha… Hmmmm… I can’t make any assumptions yet… and for sure I should not make any assumptions for her because who knows what her problem is… But just hope she can reply my messages as usual and let’s get back as friend… I’m waiting for your return…=) It’s not worthwhile to lose a friend like you… And hey, remember you promise me to go out with you… do not forget…=)

LW…
This guy is another guy in my class that I start to admire of… He does not have any good looking appearance… he might be fat but what I know his heart is full of fats of love and care… He is smart not someone very stingy or selfish… quite a good joker… he makes everyone laugh in my class…=) the most important things, he is now closer to my besties in my class… Kinda jealous by the way… hahaha… sorry… but I don’t mind now... because a lot of thing I feel like let it go by this semester… include two of my besties… I feel like I shouldn’t care about them anymore… Ok!!! Come back to him, just nothing to talk about this guy anymore… he just someone that I admire the MOST in my class… More than anyone in my class… Well… he’s not the smartest but he is the best…=) I love the time we spent together… hope everything goes well for you and your entire life…. All the best, my friend…

My fiancée…
All the while, I was admiring of your good things in you… but just do not know why, there were a lot of mistakes that you do this semester… kinda hate it when I have to mention it… Just don’t like to see you like this… sometimes kinda childish… well… I have to say you kinda changed… but whatever it is. I can’t hate you much… because I used to love you much… you are the first girl that I like and I spent my time with when we came into college… My first impression on you is pretty good… That’s why everything in between us is so good… I can’t show my face to you… I can’t get a reason for that… but well… it’s end of another semester… there is something to tell you… it’s the end of fifth semester… And throughout this whole damn five semester, there is someone who like to comment about me and you… it do always happen to me… one of it is my ex gf… Hmmmm… it seriously gets me pissed… And I seriously don’t like to be compared… Haiz… Whatever it is… after this semester, I gonna let you go… I felt like I’m the only holding you all so tight and like listening to you all and so on… and I guess no need le bah… From next semester onwards, there is something for me to focus on… and yeah, I not gonna care that much of you all… but still from my bottom of my heart, you are one of them that I will always care about…=)

Tachi…
It’s been a sweet semester for both of us… I mean we are better… kinda enjoyed the time I spent with you… All have been good I guess… nothing to say much already… It’s time to you go as well… I do not know why… It’s a feeling… whatever between us is so good ady… and I do not understand why I am doing this… just like, my heart always want to be alone… but when I’m being alone, I hope there’s someone be with me… hmmmm…. Basically, I do not understand about myself either… hmmmm… come back to Tachi… Tachi, I always wanna do something for you… Just something special that I can give you… but till now, I do not know what to give to you… Hmmmm… Btw, you are always the one unpredictable… love you always, Tachi… Hope everything best always come to you… hope you are gifted with a wonderful life… and yeah!! I will always care about you…=)

Vino…
Hey girl, nothing much to tell you… Ur heart is still such a mess… You are confused about so many things… You are weak… But let me tell you… what you are facing are a great competitor named LIFE… It’s ain’t easy… Full of new story and new twist… And you are such a baby to this world yet… And so do me… There is a lot of things we should face… And hope you won’t fall for the second time… Just look at problem cool and chill… Think of it properly… You are still young... A lot of things, you can choose… take your time… think wisely and choose… and remember you fix your life… the law of attraction said what you think, you become… ok… proud have a sister like you… I would love to hear from you more…=)
Loves…

WL…
Hmmmm… hahaha… I do not where to start… first of all… thanks for everything that you did for me… I know you care for me… There’s a lot of thing between us… I spend most of time with you... We fought almost all of time… we eat ice cream and chocolate to cool down… and we always talks to solve our problem… we study together… dinner together, lunch together, breakfast together… hahaha… I could not complain that I’m bored of you because I know you will kill me…xP… We are so closed together…all other perceive that we are couples… but only we do know that we are not… Hmmm… Things between us are so much… Can’t list down everything in here…=) You are the only I can’t let go among everyone… Kinda sad to tell this... Because I always want you to have your own space… get to know more new friends… go do some girl stuffs like shopping and all… But you’ve always failed… if you want to know, I do not like you always be with me as well… because sometimes I got to change my mind of my things just to be with you… I will be thinking a lot about you… I hope you are alright all the moment and hope you are not bored as well… If like this, how could I leave you alone… Even when I go for football, I will want you to follow… I do not know why you can’t understand… And there’s one thing I got to tell you… The more you scared, the more it happens… That was what I learned from the movie “The Secret”… Stop scared about those crap… and live our current moment to the most… Make everyone happy… Do not just stand in your box and see what you’re looking now and always live in there… WL, you have to come out and see more things… I understand how your past life was… but just do not make the same mistake again and again… I hope this blog are not making you sad or what... I just want you to know what I’m thinking… sometimes, there’s not much thing I can tell you face to face... most of things, I prefer to write… So, I write out my heart voice for you to understand… Desperately, I want you to know all these… You are the only one I can’t let go yet… I felt happy for both of the others… Hmmmm… Btw, things between us are too much… I loved all the moment that I spend with you… I am seriously happy for it… and believe me… I’m writing this with my smiley on my face… Sometimes, you can get so adorable and cute… Sometimes, you are just like a monster who wants a fight with me… hahaha… it means annoying… hehehe… you gave spices to my life… Hmmmm… There are still a lot of things I have to talk to you, remember me yea… And yea... I would wanna say a million of thanks for everything that you did for me… Sorry for things that I hurt you… And my dear, stop thinking about what is coming up and scared for it… think about what is going on now… And weyh… I hope for a good talk when we meet… I will always be beside you and support you… You are the one I’ve been thinking so much lately… Just love the way it is between me and you… The good we should make it better… The bad, we should change… You are just the one I am cared of the most now…=) Love you lots for everything you done, my dear friend…=) Hope both of us will always fight and laugh all the time=)

Hmmmm… Yea… I think that’s all… My life getting better… thanks for WL especially… I like the way it is now… And hope it will be better in coming days… I know my life gonna be better for sure… Next semester, after the conference… I’m seriously gonna workout… hope things goes well for me… I know I shall do it…=) What else to tell… I love everything around me right now… Thank god for this wonderful life… I shall not regret anymore… Thanks to all of sweet ones especially my FAMA… love you all lots…=)

My 2010 birthday…Sweet and sour…

Wow… seriously been long since last I write the blog… And now it’s time… There’s plenty of thing in my mind to write down… very importantly, a last summary for last semester and last year… but before writing that blog, I guess I should write down something about my birthday… It just something different about my birthday…=)

Hmmmm… where to start…=)

Okay… basically, I don’t know why whenever it’s near my birthday, I will have this negative thinking… I will feel like I do not want all celebration, I don’t want anything and bla bla bla… but deep inside, I will hope for everything the best from all my sweet ones… I can’t stop this thing in my mind… it just comes up like that… and I can’t put the blame on me…=)

Just few months before my birthday, I know all my juniors already have their plan to buy me things and celebrate for me… oh yea, I forgot to mention my birthday fall on one of the Friday… basically, I was like damn… why is it have to fall on Friday… why cant I enjoy more…=( And I know my best girlfriend(it is girl + friend, she is my friend) are doing something for me… she’s been acting so weird… and I kinda know she is like doing some video for me…

There was a lot of problem came up between me and her… Just because of this, we always fight… we fought because a lot of nonsense… basically, it’s all because of me... I get mad for small things and it ends up in a fight… first of all, I wanna say sorry to you first… That time, I do not know that you are being in so much of trouble just because you wanna do that video for me… hmmm… thousands of sorries…=(

Few days before my birthday, I lied to my friends that I’m going back home on that Thursday itself… I don’t wish to break their heart… the same time, I do wish so that they won’t be wasting their money to buy stuffs for me…=) only one person knows that I lied to all of them, WL, the best friend of mine that I mention earlier… hmmm…

So, the day before my birthday, I and my best friend spent our almost whole day at college cyber centre… and I know she was with me till 8pm and we went back hostel… she went back her room and I went back my room… I lied again to my juniors that I’m going back at eleven o’clock of the day… the all was quite moody… hmmm... sorry guys… so, just before it were 12am… she called me out… I told out all the truth to the juniors… hahaha… quite funny when look at their faces… Kena tipu… but I don’t mean it… the shocking moment was when WL call me to the middle of hostel… there is a bench… I like that place a lot… nice place to lepak…=( She planned to give a surprise birthday… And it was seriously shocking… The whole day she was with me, but I did not know, how the hell she get two slices of cake, and she even cook for my dinner… and what I know was she can’t cook at hostel… hmmmm… it was seriously shocking… my plans was ruined but I was happy… we fought at the moment as well because of some stupid things… she couldn’t finish up the video… she was totally upset… hmmm… it was not a matter… after that, we call all our near ones to that place, and we had our small birthday party…=) after that, the group gets bigger, another group of mine came there as well… imagine all was sleeping, and we was shouting there… there another junior of mine birthday as well… so, until a part we was forced to play “strip one two jus”… Lucky, I wont it…=) hahaha… Btw, it was getting so noisier till the guard came and halau us back… hahaha… For the whole thimg, I’m sorry and seriously thanks, WL… Love you for that…=)

The next morning, I was peacefully going class… WL lied to me that she could not get up but actually she was trying to finish up the video… so, I went for the early 8am class… I was just so happy on that day… one part of my heart is like wondering how my day gonna be… another part of my heart is like you lied to everyone, and what are you hoping for? And I thought you do not want anything… (That time I was a little regret…) first lecture finish… continue with second lecture… The teacher usually late… All my friends were like: hey darkangel, I thought you suppose to go back… I was kinda speechless… Some really know it was my birthday… wow… not bad… I’m famous… so, after that we got to know the teacher not coming… Im the one usually give announcement in the lecture because I’m kinda like monitor to them.. Something odd on the day, the treasurer of my group snatches away the microphone from me… I was a lil angry... he was abit rough… hmmmm… But the next moment was he announced that teacher is absent and he announced it was my birthday… I was stunned… the whole lecture hall stands up and sang birthday song for me… I was seriously stunned and I was so touched… hmmmm… just thanks everyone…=)

After class, it’s time to go back… Before going back, I had some unfinished job with WL… We kept fighting that particular whole week… I was so sorry to her… Hmmm… I just do not why I’m very sensitive those days… I get mad over little things… hmmm… She accompanied me the whole way back home… We had a real talk… and that time, we hope we will really be ok after that…=) When it was the time back, I just do not know how to tell this girl, how much his girl could mean to me… She was just an awesome girl that I ever know… She has done so much for me… For everything, thanks girl!!!

Went back home, it is a tradition to give what the birthday boy/girl asked… since we were in financial problem, I know they can’t do much as well… I was just hope for the best dinner ever… the men u of the day picked by me… it’s all my favourite dishes… and holly yeah!!!!!!!! It was super duper awesome dinner… Thanks, mom and dad… love you all…=)

So, that was how my birthday was… Super cool… but with a lot of thing sad things… Basically it’s about her… I’m not blaming her… I’m telling… my birthday was full of spices just because of her as well… oh yeah… She gave the video a week after that… the video was so damn cool… and it was another great present she gave me… thanks a lot, dear WL… My juniors bought me an awesome planner… the planner seriously an awesome one… So, yeah!!! Thanks everyone… it was a memorable one…=)