Ok… I was hesitating so long to write a blog… I should have written blogs by now… but it just that, I’m scared… I scared I going to lie in this page… This page supposes to be a page that I want to tell out every single thing in me... A place to let me shout out… a place to rest as well… Hmmmm… For so long, I was scared to write a blog but no longer now… why I got to be scared... Things will be much better if I tell out things… Things always been like that… I know it’s kinda my fault to tell everything out… It just that, I’m scared it would hurt others… Hmmmm… And today I convinced myself that I should not care about other people feelings in this page... This is just for me and me and me…. =)
WL
All these while it is about you that I’m so scared of. I plan to write this blog after I saw your diary… Hmmmm… I believe there are a lot of question marks in your heart. And my dear WL, whatever things that I should tell you, I already done telling you… Hmmmm… Things between us are just so difficult!! WL, I believe you do understand now… It’s just that the way you have been and I have been was so different… WL!!! I do not know what I’m writing here… It’s like full of crap and bullshits… Hmmmm… In this blog I would like to answer few questions from your diary… That I wish to highlight it and explain to you… And yea!!! Just before I explain anything, I wish tell my sincere thanks for the 1000stars, the 50hour prayers, and the prayer with subang fella yesterday (22/4). That was so nice of you… You know what, he said you over-think and over-worried… I felt the same too… I do sense the good heart of you that prays for me to be alright but hmmmm… do not know what to say… Thanks a lot… That does mean a lot to me… Thanks again… Hmmmm... I wish to explain two things from your entire diary… First… “B4 end tis diary, my dear, I’m blur…I do not know wad to do…should I continue pretend bz or msg properly vf u??? I knw u vl happy if I msg properly vf u, bt how bout her??? Hmmm……” This was one part one your diary that I wish to explain… U should know where that line comes from… WL… I told you ady… Stop giving yourself too much pressure… Why do you even need to pretend busy? You said you want give us more time… Bullshit!!!!!! You know I reply you late now days and this is something that you can’t take it… Hmmmm… You just msg me and wait… Like how you sometimes wait for ah Yap… I know I and him are different… a lot of things you don’t give me chances as well… all because you being so “ba dao”… I hope you understand… WL… This thing I believe I told you… WL, in this problem, there is only me and you... There are not such things as she in this problem… I want to make things clear!!! Problem is just about me and you… Why do you even care about what happens if she don’t like? That’s a problem between me and her if she don’t like… We can still be friends as usual… This is what you want as well… And exactly yea!!! Look at me normally… Just that, now my times and I will be more towards her… It still does not change things between me and you… You are still the big tree in my heart… She is not here to replace you… Your place is irreplaceable… And same goes to her… Her place in my heart is a new thing in my life… I’m experiencing a whole damn new thing in my life… The whole new thing is about her… WL, you told me today… You said whatever it’s, please don’t change the friendship between us… And yeah!! I never change anything about it… I know I was abit cold… It was because I scared that I give you more feelings… And I understand now that I should not do that…I think I know better what I should do… Ok? As I said the conclusion is you should have your own brain to thinks what’s best to do… And I should have my own brain to think what I should do also… I hope you clear about this part… Second things, it’s about 27/4… I know you desperately need sometime to talk to me properly… WL!!! I wish to spend some time to talk properly to you… And I’m not scared lar…=.=... I seriously can’t make it the whole day… Hmmm… Believe me… You will get to talk to me and hear things about us before semester starts… ok?? And yeah!!! I still very disappointed with what you’ve done to yourself… I was so xin tong when I saw that… I don’t believe when you do that… Heart breaks when I saw your hand… Haiz… Still totally DISAPPOINTED… That was never the one I know…. Hmmmm… And yeah… about you Aunt… Hmmm… I never thought she will do that… WL… Glad that your dad understands… Hmmmm… Just remember this in your life… Be strong WL…. I will support you always… I know how your mind thinks… Work hard in your life and show them who you are…=) I think I’m going to stop about you here… Hmmmm… Remember… Chill down… When got things that you wan to talk, talk straight to me… And act normal!!! Let’s put a full stop in our problem and you can see me happy as you always wanted… Hope we can be like Clark Kent and Chloe Sullivan… hahaha…=)
CTW!!!
Hahaha… That name itself draws a big big smile on my face…=) Thanks were the first word that crosses my mind after I write so much about WL… I know somehow you got to feel uneasy when I talk about me and her all the time when I’m being with you… I can see you tolerate in this thing a lot… Hmmmm… Just thanks, Sayang… Hmmmm… I couldn’t have been through this much without your toleration as well… Thanks again… My CTW… at this moment I am quite speechless about you… but there things that I wants to tell you… CTW, whatever between me and you now was simply awesome… In my whole life, I dreamt about getting a girl that I will love so much... that I will want to show and give everything to her… I’m seriously so glad that it’s you… I’m certainly very sure that I and you going to go very far… I never felt this kind of things before… As I said, the presence of you is like brand new thing in my life… I’m seriously very glad and happy to have you in my life… When it comes to why I chose you, I believe I do not need any reason to tell why I love you and I’m telling that it’s the matter of the heart why I fell for you… CTW… There is nothing much I could describe of until today… I just would tell that… Sayang, I LOVE YOU!!!!! And my days with you are superb… Thanks a lot… Those moment that I get to spend with you was cool and lovely… I think I won’t be writing blogs for you… This will be the last blogs for you... I want to be straight to you and face the entire problem together with you… I want to share and go through my beautiful journey with you… And Sayang, I’m not gonna let you go easily… Basically, I’m not gonna let you go… I’m just so into you… For now, I want to know more about you… Until this moment, I just love everything that you done to me… And hell yeah!!! My CTW, love you so much… I have faith in us and in love again…
This is a message to the world… I want you out there to know that, I’m not gonna fall again and hell yea!!! Once my problems are settled and being better… You can see the rising of new ME!!! I’m going up and up and up… To the world, prepare for a great change… Darkangel is just being great enough to be at the best and at the top of the world… hahaha…=) And I mean it… I’m looking forward for the day to arise...=)
