STRESSED!!!
dunno what else to say ady... today family problem pulak... whole way since morning ok only... suddenly started... it's like dunno what's the source of these problem... hmmmmm... just dunno what to say... no peace at no where... go college sama, sini pun sama... kadavuley... hmmmmm.... Do not wish to write more... wanna finish up my assignent.... teared when suddenly dad said things to me.... hmmmmm... hope everything goes well next week... seriously die hearted!! wadeva happen just let it be... never been this sad in my entire life.... yet.. still smiling after the cry and told myself..............
DARKANGEL!!! Cheer up... things happens for reasons... Things happens(BBCC's quote)... i will tryto get use to it...=)
Black Sky
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Recently....
Oh my gosh!!! what a life... Hmmmmm... It's been alot alot of stress.... friends, family, studies... bla bla bla.... hmmmm... just alot of stuff... eveything can be just solved easily... but again.. it's human to make things much more complicated..... hmmmm...
I've dreamt anout loads of stuffs... and i certainly believe all was crushed... everything never as i wanted... but what to do.. that does not mean i got to give up.. i got to study and finish all these assginments... and do all these test.. get proper results... study to get scholarship.. study for better work in future.... hmmmm....
before this i so love to come to college.... cuz i can meet all my frens... hv fun with them.. play with them.. study with them... but nowadays... things are all diff... im so wished to be happy with my besties especially WL... but it looks like never gonna happen... Why cant i just get a proper week with this girl.. as how we was before... come on!!! you were my best fren... i know deep inside you are a girl as well... i know about your characters as well.... do you know how much priority i've given for you when i actually not suppose to... do you know how much effort i put in for you to be happy.. do you how hard is it to put on a smile face eventhough i know you are sad... do you know how hard is it when i can't help you when you ada problem! and do you how much do i need a proper week in my life... solution you know is with you... and i know you tried... and i seriously speechless for wadeva it's happening... WL... in this entire sem... i hope we can make one happy week... seriously....
There is no one can replace the you in my heart.. i always talk proud about you although i do tease yoular.. because i understand and appreciate how much you meant for me.. only i know and understand it... there are no one can be like you.. you are seriously one of a kind... but frankly.. you changed alot.. you still do care for me.. i can see it.. but please let happiness flow into ur heart... you are restricting alot of things in your life... but please not happiness... everything in this life is because of our decision... serious... you can mae decision... you can change this... YOU CAN!!!! please... stop crying... understand... emotion is just part of life... please do not make it as your life... cuz you are just affecting people around you... especially me.... i love the way we were and i believe the future will make us as A better person.. WL... Hope we can do it... yang yang... ahbuu....=) AND YEA...an shi ni xi huan ni de ren shi shui?? hehehe.... smile bah....=)
ctw ah... i hope you always doing good... hmmm... about you pulak... dunno wad else to say... speechless... totally speechless... hope when you got things, you talk to me straight.... i do always give us time to meet... it's like i dunno lar... certain stuff you want but never will tell me... hmmm... dunno lar.. i dunno why you got to be so blur... lots of time lar.... and you know we are not using the same hp network... it's shall give us certain limit to talk... as in important stuff... but it's like only that time you got to be so damn blur... hmmmm... alot of stuff i believe you can change, monkey! and please... dont merajuk fast... and dun tell me merajuk oso no point cuz i won't care... i think im doing the good stuff being not care... cuz im not in the state of mind where i can care for everyone properly... i know im a lousy bf... but sorry.. this is who i am... sorry again... just please think better when you do stuff... i believe you are not at your best... i know you are way better in your thinking.... i liked you first of all because of the way you think and do stuffs... but recently quite disappointed... alot of stuff... i unable to tell you straight to face cuz i tend to forget before meeting you and also cuz i hope when we meet, we spend time properly... i do not wish to tell you problems cuz the way you are nowdays as well.. i tell you problem, you get emo... and so wads the point i tell you problem then... hmmmmm.... i tell you problem in a way want you to help me solve it but you are emoing or merajuk sometimes and i do not know why you are like this... and lastly!!! please take care of urself... not a single week i would not listen you complaint for ur stomach pain... oh gosh.... i feel so bad... i couldn't do anything... please do consult doctors or do anything but i dun wan to c u suffer like this... haiz.... take care, sayang... and yea... let me slip properly dei!!! i'm seriously damn tired... if you know i'm slipping, please give me time to rest... lol...
Hmmmm... god... please help me... i hope things will turned all out to be good before this semester ends!!! i want to have atleast a proper, happy one damn week of my diploma 7th semester.... seriously!! i need it so badly.... i hope one whole damn week..i wish to smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please... i need my long lost happiness back to myself...
I've dreamt anout loads of stuffs... and i certainly believe all was crushed... everything never as i wanted... but what to do.. that does not mean i got to give up.. i got to study and finish all these assginments... and do all these test.. get proper results... study to get scholarship.. study for better work in future.... hmmmm....
before this i so love to come to college.... cuz i can meet all my frens... hv fun with them.. play with them.. study with them... but nowadays... things are all diff... im so wished to be happy with my besties especially WL... but it looks like never gonna happen... Why cant i just get a proper week with this girl.. as how we was before... come on!!! you were my best fren... i know deep inside you are a girl as well... i know about your characters as well.... do you know how much priority i've given for you when i actually not suppose to... do you know how much effort i put in for you to be happy.. do you how hard is it to put on a smile face eventhough i know you are sad... do you know how hard is it when i can't help you when you ada problem! and do you how much do i need a proper week in my life... solution you know is with you... and i know you tried... and i seriously speechless for wadeva it's happening... WL... in this entire sem... i hope we can make one happy week... seriously....
There is no one can replace the you in my heart.. i always talk proud about you although i do tease yoular.. because i understand and appreciate how much you meant for me.. only i know and understand it... there are no one can be like you.. you are seriously one of a kind... but frankly.. you changed alot.. you still do care for me.. i can see it.. but please let happiness flow into ur heart... you are restricting alot of things in your life... but please not happiness... everything in this life is because of our decision... serious... you can mae decision... you can change this... YOU CAN!!!! please... stop crying... understand... emotion is just part of life... please do not make it as your life... cuz you are just affecting people around you... especially me.... i love the way we were and i believe the future will make us as A better person.. WL... Hope we can do it... yang yang... ahbuu....=) AND YEA...an shi ni xi huan ni de ren shi shui?? hehehe.... smile bah....=)
ctw ah... i hope you always doing good... hmmm... about you pulak... dunno wad else to say... speechless... totally speechless... hope when you got things, you talk to me straight.... i do always give us time to meet... it's like i dunno lar... certain stuff you want but never will tell me... hmmm... dunno lar.. i dunno why you got to be so blur... lots of time lar.... and you know we are not using the same hp network... it's shall give us certain limit to talk... as in important stuff... but it's like only that time you got to be so damn blur... hmmmm... alot of stuff i believe you can change, monkey! and please... dont merajuk fast... and dun tell me merajuk oso no point cuz i won't care... i think im doing the good stuff being not care... cuz im not in the state of mind where i can care for everyone properly... i know im a lousy bf... but sorry.. this is who i am... sorry again... just please think better when you do stuff... i believe you are not at your best... i know you are way better in your thinking.... i liked you first of all because of the way you think and do stuffs... but recently quite disappointed... alot of stuff... i unable to tell you straight to face cuz i tend to forget before meeting you and also cuz i hope when we meet, we spend time properly... i do not wish to tell you problems cuz the way you are nowdays as well.. i tell you problem, you get emo... and so wads the point i tell you problem then... hmmmmm.... i tell you problem in a way want you to help me solve it but you are emoing or merajuk sometimes and i do not know why you are like this... and lastly!!! please take care of urself... not a single week i would not listen you complaint for ur stomach pain... oh gosh.... i feel so bad... i couldn't do anything... please do consult doctors or do anything but i dun wan to c u suffer like this... haiz.... take care, sayang... and yea... let me slip properly dei!!! i'm seriously damn tired... if you know i'm slipping, please give me time to rest... lol...
Hmmmm... god... please help me... i hope things will turned all out to be good before this semester ends!!! i want to have atleast a proper, happy one damn week of my diploma 7th semester.... seriously!! i need it so badly.... i hope one whole damn week..i wish to smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please... i need my long lost happiness back to myself...
THIS IS HOW I BEEN RECENTLY AND WHAD I WANT RECENTLY....
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