My besties in college!!!!

I do have a lot of best friends since I was in primary. Everyone was so good for me. And yea! I do know I met 3more friends who make my life more meaningful and beautiful. I met these 3person in my college. We are all in the same college, same course and same class… erm… we are in the same society/club in our college. Hmmm… it’s a fate and destiny for us to meet. 1 of them from Johor and the other 2 from Kedah. Whatever it is. I’m so glad I met you all. U guys are just so special. Let’s get into them one by one.
First, she is who known as CF (I don’t wan any name to be mentioned). She is the first person I get to know in my class. It was because of the ice breaking session by our 1st semester English teacher. Lol. It was true that I attracted to her on that particular first day. And most importantly, she is the reason why I get to know the other 2friend as well. I’m kind of like fell for her in first semester. But after a while, we knew things won’t go good and that’s how our true friendship was bonded. She is kinda straight person, cheerful, hard to be explained, someone who wants to be mature all the time, someone with strong will power, kinda funny character, not available(not single)~hahaha, helpful, loyal person. We become very close in a very short time. We share and talk about our problems. Haha. I knew she kinda like boring listen to me but yea she does gave me spirit to start a whole new life. She helped in bring me out from my emo world. Lol. Thanks and Sorry, CF… It’s going to be one year we are being so close without any problems. And I hope our friendship will remain like this forever. Thanks for helping me on my studies and everything. Thanks a lot.
Second, XY… If I’m not wrong, I think it took me quite long time to understand this girl’s heart. Wonderful person, noble person, who really can show the meaning of friends, emo person, not stable or strong yet but who willing to try everything, another funny character (the way she memancing in lecture)~hahahaha, and a nice person to be with. For whatever things that you’ve done for me, i got a word for ya. THANKS. In my mind, I always think of the “Naruto” CDs. I didn’t know that you actually heard my talk and purposely spend time on it to burn for me. Thanks a lot. All the way till you gave me in Taman Pertanian, I seriously thought you forget it and I didn’t even thought you will give me and I totally forgot about it. Still remember that day, I woke up and I saw. It was wrapped with happy birthday gift paper. I thought it wasn’t for me and I slept back. When I woke up, I saw my name. omg! It was so touching! No one actually did that before. When you are reading this, I wanna thank you. Now, you understand why I thanked you so much. Thanks a lot.
Last one… My Tachi~^^~… She is one of the important spices in my life. The biggest stone head. Lol. She is far more different. Damn emoish person, nice person to be with, kinda weird, secretive, unexpected person. Hmmmm… I will tell don’t expect what she can do… She is so secretive and that’s explained why I can’t imagine what she can do. She love to keep things to herself. Sometime she makes me feel angry and sometimes happy to see her. Lol. One of the paling unexpected moments of hers was the time when shewith the decision of Mr.K…(she is not available)~lol…. But glad that she is ok with her decision. Both of them seem to be very good. Hahaha. I’m jealous. lol. She loves to be emo when she not supposed. For me, she kinda like immature… hahaha… I felt like she got a long way to go in her life… but I might be wrong too because whatever I predict about her it always goes wrong. But yeah, she shows me a lot of thing. Full of new things and new spices. I feel like I learned a lot from her. And yea. Forget about her speciality. Her voice. Her cute voice. I often said it’s like Minnie mouse or Donald duck’s voice. Lol. I’m happy to meet her as I hope she is too. And Tachi, sorry if I did anything wrong. I do sayang you ok??? lol~^^~
And something that still in my mind and at where I will treasure for my whole life is my birthday. It wasn’t so surprising as I already got some mind idea that you all gonna do something… But it was the first birthday party in my entire life with the awesome present. It was very special. It was just one year. But my memory towards you guys is like already more the few years. Thanks a lot. It has been a wonderful year. Thanks guys… I hope we get a better and much more memorial days together…^^

Happy feeling or love???

This question was asked by one of my besties… Is it a happy feeling or love?? Omg!!! This question makes me think a lot. I admit I don’t know the meaning of love... Or should I say I lost the meaning of love?? Well… Back to the first one… I think I felt love… I do want to care for her… I do want to be the best for her… I told her everything about myself… And I’m sure she felt it too…cuz I knew she was… But now when I think back…. Was it all real??? Was it a happy feeling?? She just felt for a certain period of time… and then… Like magic… it gone…. Hehehe… Was it love??? Or happy feelings at wer u juz wan to try??? The 2nd one… it should nothing wrong with her if we’re to be asked this question… Because she got more experience and she knows a lot more than me about love… But I know I did a good job too… I felt it again… was it just happy feeling??? But I think it’s not just a happy feeling… I do will love her but just scared things go wrong again… and if ask her this question… from my point of view, she just ignored it as she said… she who knows more things about love life just failed to this question… I hope she understand… it was just happy feeling… But it’s okay… nothing much I gained but yeah I lost a lot… hmmmmmmm…. I’m not going to be emo… I got a lot besties around me who make my life wonderful… I love to be with them… I’m enjoying my life now… I’m not going to care of others who I don’t wish to care but as usual I will do my best for everyone. For those I hurt you guys a lot, I’m sorry… This sorry is especially for u, my dear BBCC… I’m sorry… But I hope things will get normal and you will start enjoy your life… If you think the existence of me around you, do hurt you… please do tell me so that I cant make my move… thank you… Happy Feeling or Love? Love is just 4 letter word that I will never understand… I’m not going to commit myself in these kinda things in this short term… God, please do hear me and help me…

A double similar mistake~ regrets!!!!

Everybody will hope that they will never repeat the same mistake they did in their life again… But I was just so stupid… I repeated my mistakes again for the second time… And my mistake is not a small matter… It was about my girlfriends… haha… Two stupid mistakes… Hmmmm… Things that we can be better are all bullshit!!! Both of them said they lost their feeling after we coupled… This thing happened even faster after I coupled with my second one… Hmmmm… Am I that boring??? I’m sick of listening to this… You are just very nice person… But then WTH for we just have to break up??? After all, I no longer care much about my first girlfriend although we’re longer together... The mistake that I did was that I thought of proposing them back after we break up… I wanted to give them more space for themselves… End up, I was just dumped… Lol… I couldn’t understand this world!!! When think of the second one, the feeling is just sucks… After few months later, she could just come and tell that she ignored those feelings??? Is this a matter of play??? It’s too late… I hate you more, my second girlfriend… It just like that… For no reason, I just don’t like you… A double similar mistake that ruined my love life… It hurts a lot…

What’s wrong with you people????

Hey, I know you not for short… Gonna be one year… I spend almost three quarter of a year time with you… I learn things… You showed me what life is… You showed me what is world n etc… U changed my life… I was undergoing a big revolution in my life… Now that, you said you are wrong… Don’t you feel it’s too late??? You’ve changed everything in me and I’ve to change back as how I was before… Hmmmm… Things look easy for ya… You can just said sorry ryte… Those days, I was wrong… My thinking was wrong and everything about me is wrong… And now, who is right now??? Me or you??? You again ryte… It was so fun for you to do this, isn’t??? You were just so individualistic and hedonistic… lol... I’m crapping… hahaha... okay... Come back… Hmmmm… But one thing I’m glad of you are on the right track back… I’m very happy for that… I would support you… Every decision you take is my decisions too… Well done… You are doing great… Now, focus on your exams… Things will be good… take care…. But I finish up this thing… I would want you to know… It might be easy for me to turn back because it was my base of life… You have to try very hard… You life base is just not there… I’m not discriminating your life… I’m not gonna talk about this to you because your stupid ego would just control you to defend yourself… Yet, this is the fact… Have a great life people… I told you I was right… Anyone listened to me before??? Haiz… Just good luck people… I will never forget you guys…

I'm sorry, BBCC…(29Mac-1April)

Another happening week… You just are giving me a lot of problem… I cannot anymore… I wish I could tell you face to face… Things are just cannot ryte… The fact that I still love you is something doubtable… But it will be not when you are sad… Why I must care so much about you… I don’t want to be nice to anyone especially you… You are treating me so nice although I make you cry everyday. Why you still say you love me when I’m hoping you to hate me… Why do you have to give the idiotic smile and laugh??? Why do you still wiping my hair slowly with full passion and love? Why do you do things like this? I just want you go out from my life. Regretted for meeting you and to spoil your life... I’m apologizing for everything. Please forgive me. I’m sorry…

Monday, we were good… I mean after our talk… We went McD… We had some great time… Tuesday, things were still okay… Wednesday, things start back… Over some small problem, the thing went so far… I know I’m wrong that I showed face… But I just don’t like what you doing… It was like why you have to do this after you know I don’t like to waste my time all… I know you want me to care about you... I know you want me to tell good things to you… But I’m mad for things… I’m sorry for being so pettish… I’m wrong for everything… I know… and I know it’s too late to turn things back… Sorry, BBCC…

Thursday… I knew you cried for things… I knew you are sad… I knew you need me… I was wanted to be nice to you back as in just like Monday… I met you after my test… I was OK only… Treating you properly… And we just start back… You just have that annoying ego with you… why you can’t just accept the face??? You yourself knew that your teacher is not that nice if comparing to our teachers… And why you just have to defend yourself???? We quarrel for that… haiz… I get pissed… I don’t know why you just can get me pissed so fast… When you tell something wrong, you can always cover up your thing… but when we does, never can... before I go back, I wanted to try my last chance… I want to make you happy back… You came down as in like being forced to come down… Sorry if you do… I just want to make you happy… I can’t tell things as you were like that… I was mad on myself!! Why things are just like this??? And then when I’m on the way back, u send that message??? You send it to everyone and finish up all your money… I know you are sad… And I’m confirm that I’m one of your sadness… Night, I called to talk to you… You never want to tell it out… But I can figure out… Every word of yours pierces into my heart… It was damn pain… I felt for true… Suddenly very pain… I used to be the one who listen to you every time… And I know you felt that I’m no longer a right person to tell things to… I’m sorry… Deeply I’m apologizing…

This is just a small thing that I want to tell you… one small portion of problems that we having… A lot of things I wish to tell you… Cannot lar… You are going to sit for test… You seriously have to do your best… I can’t help you anymore… I can only watch you… sorry… Because we’re just far… I will pray for you every moment… Hope you get good results this semester… and hope you deserve what you get… I’m sorry for everything… I don’t want to make things more complicated… Blame me for everything… I know I’m wrong… Sorry… Is me never give you chance… I understand now… It’s because of me… By the time you reading this, I’m just one more step further than how far we was before… OK… Sorry, BBCC…

Usual morning incidence~ noob LRT service~ White sparrow~29Mac2010

It was a great morning… woke up early for college as usual at 5am^^… Everyone was punctual… I meant my father… had a short breakfast with my dad… and here start the first problem of the day…. Noob LRT service… the train was actually waiting for around 5minutes at every station… meantime, inside the train… it was full pack… all of us was just like sardine in the sardine can... Lol… Damn annoying… Even worst, when I have to stand the whole way… And there come the entry of the “White Sparrow”. It was like everybody pushing and I don’t know somehow I just was beside her… No… She was in front me… She looks abit pale… she’s like suffocating… the next thing; I’m like actually push every one aside just to make her more comfortable… I don’t know where she is from but she just caught my attention towards her... Not pretty if compare to BBCC…^^ her hair was pinned up and she look tidy and very descent… I tried my best… but she never even look at me… haiz… After a while, I was pushed inside… and I’m kinda like cannot protect her… lol… After a while, The LRT was just back normal and yea… I do get a place to sit… My eyes still on her… She was like suffering there… I’m not going to let her to sit... then, what others will think… what she will think??? Hmmmm… After all, who is she???? And then, after a while I the one beside went out as in he reached his station… She wanted to come and sit… my bad luck!!! As a guy who stands just beside me sat at the place… I pity her a lot… Haiz… One great news is that I know she is from my college and she travelling everyday and she is studying something related to chemistry…^^ My detective mind starts to work ady… haha… when we reached Wangsa Maju station, She just gone like that… like magic… Hmmmm… I missed her… But yea!!! I hope to c u you again, white sparrow!!!! I just want to see you back… This is just a feeling to see you back…Not to flirt with you or what… But u just give me a happy feeling… White sparrow, great job… U caught darkangel’s attention…^^