Another semester… and another year… another glimpse of my eye… so damn fast… Everything just go like normal… I’m getting older… haiz… Why do I have to get old…XD A lot of things happen in last semester… It started like a mess but thanks to WL, she helped me a lot to bring my days back to normal… thanks… before the semester finish, I transferred a lot of movie into my lappy… and I install FIFA2011 and Call of Duty into my lappy as well… And that’s the only thing that I gonna do in this semester break… This semester examination was abit crap… This is the first time I did so many silly mistakes in my papers… Hope I will get all my Aces…hope all my wishes come true… I wanna be a distinction student… Hmmmm… There is nothing much to talk about but I wanna make a summary for some of my loved ones…=)
Goldfish…
I do not know what to tell about this girl except than hahaha… Hmmmm… I can’t make any assumptions yet… and for sure I should not make any assumptions for her because who knows what her problem is… But just hope she can reply my messages as usual and let’s get back as friend… I’m waiting for your return…=) It’s not worthwhile to lose a friend like you… And hey, remember you promise me to go out with you… do not forget…=)
LW…
This guy is another guy in my class that I start to admire of… He does not have any good looking appearance… he might be fat but what I know his heart is full of fats of love and care… He is smart not someone very stingy or selfish… quite a good joker… he makes everyone laugh in my class…=) the most important things, he is now closer to my besties in my class… Kinda jealous by the way… hahaha… sorry… but I don’t mind now... because a lot of thing I feel like let it go by this semester… include two of my besties… I feel like I shouldn’t care about them anymore… Ok!!! Come back to him, just nothing to talk about this guy anymore… he just someone that I admire the MOST in my class… More than anyone in my class… Well… he’s not the smartest but he is the best…=) I love the time we spent together… hope everything goes well for you and your entire life…. All the best, my friend…
My fiancée…
All the while, I was admiring of your good things in you… but just do not know why, there were a lot of mistakes that you do this semester… kinda hate it when I have to mention it… Just don’t like to see you like this… sometimes kinda childish… well… I have to say you kinda changed… but whatever it is. I can’t hate you much… because I used to love you much… you are the first girl that I like and I spent my time with when we came into college… My first impression on you is pretty good… That’s why everything in between us is so good… I can’t show my face to you… I can’t get a reason for that… but well… it’s end of another semester… there is something to tell you… it’s the end of fifth semester… And throughout this whole damn five semester, there is someone who like to comment about me and you… it do always happen to me… one of it is my ex gf… Hmmmm… it seriously gets me pissed… And I seriously don’t like to be compared… Haiz… Whatever it is… after this semester, I gonna let you go… I felt like I’m the only holding you all so tight and like listening to you all and so on… and I guess no need le bah… From next semester onwards, there is something for me to focus on… and yeah, I not gonna care that much of you all… but still from my bottom of my heart, you are one of them that I will always care about…=)
Tachi…
It’s been a sweet semester for both of us… I mean we are better… kinda enjoyed the time I spent with you… All have been good I guess… nothing to say much already… It’s time to you go as well… I do not know why… It’s a feeling… whatever between us is so good ady… and I do not understand why I am doing this… just like, my heart always want to be alone… but when I’m being alone, I hope there’s someone be with me… hmmmm…. Basically, I do not understand about myself either… hmmmm… come back to Tachi… Tachi, I always wanna do something for you… Just something special that I can give you… but till now, I do not know what to give to you… Hmmmm… Btw, you are always the one unpredictable… love you always, Tachi… Hope everything best always come to you… hope you are gifted with a wonderful life… and yeah!! I will always care about you…=)
Vino…
Hey girl, nothing much to tell you… Ur heart is still such a mess… You are confused about so many things… You are weak… But let me tell you… what you are facing are a great competitor named LIFE… It’s ain’t easy… Full of new story and new twist… And you are such a baby to this world yet… And so do me… There is a lot of things we should face… And hope you won’t fall for the second time… Just look at problem cool and chill… Think of it properly… You are still young... A lot of things, you can choose… take your time… think wisely and choose… and remember you fix your life… the law of attraction said what you think, you become… ok… proud have a sister like you… I would love to hear from you more…=)
Loves…
WL…
Hmmmm… hahaha… I do not where to start… first of all… thanks for everything that you did for me… I know you care for me… There’s a lot of thing between us… I spend most of time with you... We fought almost all of time… we eat ice cream and chocolate to cool down… and we always talks to solve our problem… we study together… dinner together, lunch together, breakfast together… hahaha… I could not complain that I’m bored of you because I know you will kill me…xP… We are so closed together…all other perceive that we are couples… but only we do know that we are not… Hmmm… Things between us are so much… Can’t list down everything in here…=) You are the only I can’t let go among everyone… Kinda sad to tell this... Because I always want you to have your own space… get to know more new friends… go do some girl stuffs like shopping and all… But you’ve always failed… if you want to know, I do not like you always be with me as well… because sometimes I got to change my mind of my things just to be with you… I will be thinking a lot about you… I hope you are alright all the moment and hope you are not bored as well… If like this, how could I leave you alone… Even when I go for football, I will want you to follow… I do not know why you can’t understand… And there’s one thing I got to tell you… The more you scared, the more it happens… That was what I learned from the movie “The Secret”… Stop scared about those crap… and live our current moment to the most… Make everyone happy… Do not just stand in your box and see what you’re looking now and always live in there… WL, you have to come out and see more things… I understand how your past life was… but just do not make the same mistake again and again… I hope this blog are not making you sad or what... I just want you to know what I’m thinking… sometimes, there’s not much thing I can tell you face to face... most of things, I prefer to write… So, I write out my heart voice for you to understand… Desperately, I want you to know all these… You are the only one I can’t let go yet… I felt happy for both of the others… Hmmmm… Btw, things between us are too much… I loved all the moment that I spend with you… I am seriously happy for it… and believe me… I’m writing this with my smiley on my face… Sometimes, you can get so adorable and cute… Sometimes, you are just like a monster who wants a fight with me… hahaha… it means annoying… hehehe… you gave spices to my life… Hmmmm… There are still a lot of things I have to talk to you, remember me yea… And yea... I would wanna say a million of thanks for everything that you did for me… Sorry for things that I hurt you… And my dear, stop thinking about what is coming up and scared for it… think about what is going on now… And weyh… I hope for a good talk when we meet… I will always be beside you and support you… You are the one I’ve been thinking so much lately… Just love the way it is between me and you… The good we should make it better… The bad, we should change… You are just the one I am cared of the most now…=) Love you lots for everything you done, my dear friend…=) Hope both of us will always fight and laugh all the time=)
Hmmmm… Yea… I think that’s all… My life getting better… thanks for WL especially… I like the way it is now… And hope it will be better in coming days… I know my life gonna be better for sure… Next semester, after the conference… I’m seriously gonna workout… hope things goes well for me… I know I shall do it…=) What else to tell… I love everything around me right now… Thank god for this wonderful life… I shall not regret anymore… Thanks to all of sweet ones especially my FAMA… love you all lots…=)
Black Sky
Sunday, January 23, 2011
My 2010 birthday…Sweet and sour…
Wow… seriously been long since last I write the blog… And now it’s time… There’s plenty of thing in my mind to write down… very importantly, a last summary for last semester and last year… but before writing that blog, I guess I should write down something about my birthday… It just something different about my birthday…=)
Hmmmm… where to start…=)
Okay… basically, I don’t know why whenever it’s near my birthday, I will have this negative thinking… I will feel like I do not want all celebration, I don’t want anything and bla bla bla… but deep inside, I will hope for everything the best from all my sweet ones… I can’t stop this thing in my mind… it just comes up like that… and I can’t put the blame on me…=)
Just few months before my birthday, I know all my juniors already have their plan to buy me things and celebrate for me… oh yea, I forgot to mention my birthday fall on one of the Friday… basically, I was like damn… why is it have to fall on Friday… why cant I enjoy more…=( And I know my best girlfriend(it is girl + friend, she is my friend) are doing something for me… she’s been acting so weird… and I kinda know she is like doing some video for me…
There was a lot of problem came up between me and her… Just because of this, we always fight… we fought because a lot of nonsense… basically, it’s all because of me... I get mad for small things and it ends up in a fight… first of all, I wanna say sorry to you first… That time, I do not know that you are being in so much of trouble just because you wanna do that video for me… hmmm… thousands of sorries…=(
Few days before my birthday, I lied to my friends that I’m going back home on that Thursday itself… I don’t wish to break their heart… the same time, I do wish so that they won’t be wasting their money to buy stuffs for me…=) only one person knows that I lied to all of them, WL, the best friend of mine that I mention earlier… hmmm…
So, the day before my birthday, I and my best friend spent our almost whole day at college cyber centre… and I know she was with me till 8pm and we went back hostel… she went back her room and I went back my room… I lied again to my juniors that I’m going back at eleven o’clock of the day… the all was quite moody… hmmm... sorry guys… so, just before it were 12am… she called me out… I told out all the truth to the juniors… hahaha… quite funny when look at their faces… Kena tipu… but I don’t mean it… the shocking moment was when WL call me to the middle of hostel… there is a bench… I like that place a lot… nice place to lepak…=( She planned to give a surprise birthday… And it was seriously shocking… The whole day she was with me, but I did not know, how the hell she get two slices of cake, and she even cook for my dinner… and what I know was she can’t cook at hostel… hmmmm… it was seriously shocking… my plans was ruined but I was happy… we fought at the moment as well because of some stupid things… she couldn’t finish up the video… she was totally upset… hmmm… it was not a matter… after that, we call all our near ones to that place, and we had our small birthday party…=) after that, the group gets bigger, another group of mine came there as well… imagine all was sleeping, and we was shouting there… there another junior of mine birthday as well… so, until a part we was forced to play “strip one two jus”… Lucky, I wont it…=) hahaha… Btw, it was getting so noisier till the guard came and halau us back… hahaha… For the whole thimg, I’m sorry and seriously thanks, WL… Love you for that…=)
The next morning, I was peacefully going class… WL lied to me that she could not get up but actually she was trying to finish up the video… so, I went for the early 8am class… I was just so happy on that day… one part of my heart is like wondering how my day gonna be… another part of my heart is like you lied to everyone, and what are you hoping for? And I thought you do not want anything… (That time I was a little regret…) first lecture finish… continue with second lecture… The teacher usually late… All my friends were like: hey darkangel, I thought you suppose to go back… I was kinda speechless… Some really know it was my birthday… wow… not bad… I’m famous… so, after that we got to know the teacher not coming… Im the one usually give announcement in the lecture because I’m kinda like monitor to them.. Something odd on the day, the treasurer of my group snatches away the microphone from me… I was a lil angry... he was abit rough… hmmmm… But the next moment was he announced that teacher is absent and he announced it was my birthday… I was stunned… the whole lecture hall stands up and sang birthday song for me… I was seriously stunned and I was so touched… hmmmm… just thanks everyone…=)
After class, it’s time to go back… Before going back, I had some unfinished job with WL… We kept fighting that particular whole week… I was so sorry to her… Hmmm… I just do not why I’m very sensitive those days… I get mad over little things… hmmm… She accompanied me the whole way back home… We had a real talk… and that time, we hope we will really be ok after that…=) When it was the time back, I just do not know how to tell this girl, how much his girl could mean to me… She was just an awesome girl that I ever know… She has done so much for me… For everything, thanks girl!!!
Went back home, it is a tradition to give what the birthday boy/girl asked… since we were in financial problem, I know they can’t do much as well… I was just hope for the best dinner ever… the men u of the day picked by me… it’s all my favourite dishes… and holly yeah!!!!!!!! It was super duper awesome dinner… Thanks, mom and dad… love you all…=)
So, that was how my birthday was… Super cool… but with a lot of thing sad things… Basically it’s about her… I’m not blaming her… I’m telling… my birthday was full of spices just because of her as well… oh yeah… She gave the video a week after that… the video was so damn cool… and it was another great present she gave me… thanks a lot, dear WL… My juniors bought me an awesome planner… the planner seriously an awesome one… So, yeah!!! Thanks everyone… it was a memorable one…=)
Hmmmm… where to start…=)
Okay… basically, I don’t know why whenever it’s near my birthday, I will have this negative thinking… I will feel like I do not want all celebration, I don’t want anything and bla bla bla… but deep inside, I will hope for everything the best from all my sweet ones… I can’t stop this thing in my mind… it just comes up like that… and I can’t put the blame on me…=)
Just few months before my birthday, I know all my juniors already have their plan to buy me things and celebrate for me… oh yea, I forgot to mention my birthday fall on one of the Friday… basically, I was like damn… why is it have to fall on Friday… why cant I enjoy more…=( And I know my best girlfriend(it is girl + friend, she is my friend) are doing something for me… she’s been acting so weird… and I kinda know she is like doing some video for me…
There was a lot of problem came up between me and her… Just because of this, we always fight… we fought because a lot of nonsense… basically, it’s all because of me... I get mad for small things and it ends up in a fight… first of all, I wanna say sorry to you first… That time, I do not know that you are being in so much of trouble just because you wanna do that video for me… hmmm… thousands of sorries…=(
Few days before my birthday, I lied to my friends that I’m going back home on that Thursday itself… I don’t wish to break their heart… the same time, I do wish so that they won’t be wasting their money to buy stuffs for me…=) only one person knows that I lied to all of them, WL, the best friend of mine that I mention earlier… hmmm…
So, the day before my birthday, I and my best friend spent our almost whole day at college cyber centre… and I know she was with me till 8pm and we went back hostel… she went back her room and I went back my room… I lied again to my juniors that I’m going back at eleven o’clock of the day… the all was quite moody… hmmm... sorry guys… so, just before it were 12am… she called me out… I told out all the truth to the juniors… hahaha… quite funny when look at their faces… Kena tipu… but I don’t mean it… the shocking moment was when WL call me to the middle of hostel… there is a bench… I like that place a lot… nice place to lepak…=( She planned to give a surprise birthday… And it was seriously shocking… The whole day she was with me, but I did not know, how the hell she get two slices of cake, and she even cook for my dinner… and what I know was she can’t cook at hostel… hmmmm… it was seriously shocking… my plans was ruined but I was happy… we fought at the moment as well because of some stupid things… she couldn’t finish up the video… she was totally upset… hmmm… it was not a matter… after that, we call all our near ones to that place, and we had our small birthday party…=) after that, the group gets bigger, another group of mine came there as well… imagine all was sleeping, and we was shouting there… there another junior of mine birthday as well… so, until a part we was forced to play “strip one two jus”… Lucky, I wont it…=) hahaha… Btw, it was getting so noisier till the guard came and halau us back… hahaha… For the whole thimg, I’m sorry and seriously thanks, WL… Love you for that…=)
The next morning, I was peacefully going class… WL lied to me that she could not get up but actually she was trying to finish up the video… so, I went for the early 8am class… I was just so happy on that day… one part of my heart is like wondering how my day gonna be… another part of my heart is like you lied to everyone, and what are you hoping for? And I thought you do not want anything… (That time I was a little regret…) first lecture finish… continue with second lecture… The teacher usually late… All my friends were like: hey darkangel, I thought you suppose to go back… I was kinda speechless… Some really know it was my birthday… wow… not bad… I’m famous… so, after that we got to know the teacher not coming… Im the one usually give announcement in the lecture because I’m kinda like monitor to them.. Something odd on the day, the treasurer of my group snatches away the microphone from me… I was a lil angry... he was abit rough… hmmmm… But the next moment was he announced that teacher is absent and he announced it was my birthday… I was stunned… the whole lecture hall stands up and sang birthday song for me… I was seriously stunned and I was so touched… hmmmm… just thanks everyone…=)
After class, it’s time to go back… Before going back, I had some unfinished job with WL… We kept fighting that particular whole week… I was so sorry to her… Hmmm… I just do not why I’m very sensitive those days… I get mad over little things… hmmm… She accompanied me the whole way back home… We had a real talk… and that time, we hope we will really be ok after that…=) When it was the time back, I just do not know how to tell this girl, how much his girl could mean to me… She was just an awesome girl that I ever know… She has done so much for me… For everything, thanks girl!!!
Went back home, it is a tradition to give what the birthday boy/girl asked… since we were in financial problem, I know they can’t do much as well… I was just hope for the best dinner ever… the men u of the day picked by me… it’s all my favourite dishes… and holly yeah!!!!!!!! It was super duper awesome dinner… Thanks, mom and dad… love you all…=)
So, that was how my birthday was… Super cool… but with a lot of thing sad things… Basically it’s about her… I’m not blaming her… I’m telling… my birthday was full of spices just because of her as well… oh yeah… She gave the video a week after that… the video was so damn cool… and it was another great present she gave me… thanks a lot, dear WL… My juniors bought me an awesome planner… the planner seriously an awesome one… So, yeah!!! Thanks everyone… it was a memorable one…=)
Friday, October 29, 2010
I didn't know I'm behind it.. Sorry!!
Basically i do not where to start again... Blogs giving me pressure... Hmmmm.. Lots of blog to write... but no time to write... Im writing this because i need to today...
Basically it's about what happen today... I dunno that you went through so much... Im waiting for this day.. Where i noe that im doing wrong... The whole things will be better if you did not cry when you talk to me...
Hmmmm... I do not know what else to say... Just as you say, no one gave you a choice... You got no way to go, no other way to breath, you r blur of what you should do, and you seriously do not know what else to do ady... hmmmmm...
When you say it, i get damn sad... I tot i helped you those days... Now only i know everything is upside down... Hmmmm... I do not wish to say sorry ... It's meaningless for this situation... But thats the most i think i can do... Haiz... It's been meaningful day... I hope whatever you say was abit earlier... Now, we are like at the end of everything... hmmmmm...
But i still couldn't understand... Y after everything only then you will tell... You could have stop me... And not purposely i said dont want to go... I did not purposely act like i dunno... I did not... I do not know what else to say le... I wan to talk to someone about this again... A feel like i did some big wrong... Haiz...
Everything is like a big turn now.. Hmmmm... Just very speechless... I was responsible for that tears again... Btw, next tuesday, i promise others for my presentations and i got notes stuff to do ya... Just dunno how to explain again... DO NOT KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^
I JUST DO NOT KNOW.... N STILL I DIDN'T KNOW I'M BEHIND IT....
Basically it's about what happen today... I dunno that you went through so much... Im waiting for this day.. Where i noe that im doing wrong... The whole things will be better if you did not cry when you talk to me...
Hmmmm... I do not know what else to say... Just as you say, no one gave you a choice... You got no way to go, no other way to breath, you r blur of what you should do, and you seriously do not know what else to do ady... hmmmmm...
When you say it, i get damn sad... I tot i helped you those days... Now only i know everything is upside down... Hmmmm... I do not wish to say sorry ... It's meaningless for this situation... But thats the most i think i can do... Haiz... It's been meaningful day... I hope whatever you say was abit earlier... Now, we are like at the end of everything... hmmmmm...
But i still couldn't understand... Y after everything only then you will tell... You could have stop me... And not purposely i said dont want to go... I did not purposely act like i dunno... I did not... I do not know what else to say le... I wan to talk to someone about this again... A feel like i did some big wrong... Haiz...
Everything is like a big turn now.. Hmmmm... Just very speechless... I was responsible for that tears again... Btw, next tuesday, i promise others for my presentations and i got notes stuff to do ya... Just dunno how to explain again... DO NOT KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^
I JUST DO NOT KNOW.... N STILL I DIDN'T KNOW I'M BEHIND IT....
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
4th week of 5th semester…
Do you know what happen if there are lots and tons of misunderstanding in life??? It brings you down to the hell... That’s what I’m going through now… First four weeks, it’s extremely tough for me… I cannot handle everything by myself… feel like cry out loud… feel like shout out loud... feel like go back home and sleep… feel like let go everything and ran away again… feel very regretted… What I was happy for is what I’m regretting or depress so much now… It’s so damn cool ryte… AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!! FFIIIISSSHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! F!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please… I cannot anymore…
I do not know where to start… hmmmmm…
Last semester I had a drastic change in my feelings… This few weeks I got drastic changes in my life… Ppooofff!!! Everything changed… Everything… Hmmmm… First was my assignment group… I hope only few subjects I would want to join other group so that I can know more about other people in my class… End up, I’m totally out of my usual team… It was quite a mess when it happens!! I was seriously pissed… Being so long in one class could not even give and take in important situation… It’s so damn dumb!!!! It was seriously sad not only because I’m out of my team only but also for my fellow friends… Now, I’m out of my usual team, I’m one step away from the three that I always admire… Hmmm… Haiz… Speechless… I don’t like this… I got to start all over again… Hmmmm… Now, I got to be with different peoples… hmmm…
Next was my camp… I was extremely excited that because this is my event… We went to Dusun Eco Resort… I never believe that I and my team actually did it… It’s like the first event in my entire life… I know I need a lot of people to teach me this and that… All around me possibly can give good encouragement… But end of everything, I just feel it would be better if I’m on my own… Everyone around me was so much better than me in experience… So damn better than me… Hmmm… But…. Haiz… I know one thing before I go… I’m alone… all alone… Hmmmm… In the camp as well, I was so damn pissed… I can’t do anything... I felt energyless… Pointless… Especially my dearest WL… Do not know what else to do ady… I wanted enjoy to the max… It comes once in my life time… There is no more first time ady… This first time was ruined again… I ruined myself in front of all my besties… It was second fall of this semester… Hmmmm… Two times… Now, it’s done… I hope I can do it all over again… Just seriously, I want to do it all over again... Please… I hope the god hears me… hmmmm…
This two main event has brought down me a lot this semester… Then, CF… I do not what’s the problem between us… Maybe because I talked too much??? Who knows…? I do not know how to tell ady… Please do mind… I’m a human… Everything you said disturb my mind a lot… I do not know what else to tell ady… You are my third fall of this semester… Hmmm… I’m speechless about you… Just hope you doing good… I do not know what the problem is… N I do not know it is problem or not at first of everything… Just, you are my third fall…
Here comes my greatest fall… My dearest WL!!! Oooi!!!!!!!!!!! What happen to you??? You acted seriously damn weird.. Especially this fourth week… a lot of thing I already tell you… I tot you understand everything that I told you… and I was so glad… a felt like I can depend on someone… A felt like my burden was becoming less… but… but……. I din know that whatever you understand is totally different… I waited this Tuesday like I wanted to see what you want to do… But you know what, you are 360 degree away from what I tot you will do… You became someone that I can’t depend on… I can’t talk to you… Your ego still with you... Mine as well… Hmmmm… What the… Hmmmmm… fourth week, my burden all doubled… My worries doubled… my sadness tripled… I become more and more depressed!!! I do not know what to tell ady… Im dying inside… haiz… Im speechless… let me answer your question first… You wanted to know what is difference if whatever you told on Tuesday will be if you tell it out on Sunday right? Hmmmm… Everything is already explained up there ady… I tot you understand everything and you are alright with everything and you agree with my opinion… I do not want you to change fully without understand my meaning properly… That one message is ruining me and you now… Yeah… You did everything… correct... You are good… Can I ask you one thing?? Where is our friendship now?? There is none of it… WL... Please… I know you are very depressed… Everything about you is so damn sad… Hmmmm… Haiz… I don’t like…. I don’t like your blog or whatever message… I don’t like… Act like normal first… That’s the important part.. You are determinant of everything about me and you all… Just decide it… I’m in or I’m out… Haiz… I know how you feel… you can’t run away from me… I DON’T WANT you be sad because of me… DON’T WANT ah… Hey… I want to talk to you… I want you to understand.. Please!!!!! I can’t write anymore… I cannot write anymore ady… I’m superbly sad… Dun worry it’s not because of you… It’s because I just lost myself… I’m drowning again.. Into a huge dark sea… The sea of tears… Trying to swim up and up…
For once, I wanted things to be good back… And that’s how all went wrong… I wanted to treat you all the same… I want to see you all happy… But everything upside down… I’m very sorry everyone… I’m too pissed… I got no time for myself since first week.. im very much in tension… I got so many things to do... I’m depressed… Under geramji!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hmmmm…. Haiz… I dun like this… I just dun like myself anymore… Now, I just don’t like who I am… It’s no longer cool to be me… That’s all… Gonna stop writing… When I’m stop writing, you sit just beside me… It was total different than before… It’s not you.. It’s not me and this is not the world I wanted… It’s all gone… Everything in me just flew away… WL, now, there is one thing I’m very very worried of… If you want to help me.. Do this properly… Study for the next week test…I want to c you score flying colours… I want to c happiness in your face again.. As happy as before… as lovely as before… and last but not least… as my FRIEND as before…
I do not know where to start… hmmmmm…
Last semester I had a drastic change in my feelings… This few weeks I got drastic changes in my life… Ppooofff!!! Everything changed… Everything… Hmmmm… First was my assignment group… I hope only few subjects I would want to join other group so that I can know more about other people in my class… End up, I’m totally out of my usual team… It was quite a mess when it happens!! I was seriously pissed… Being so long in one class could not even give and take in important situation… It’s so damn dumb!!!! It was seriously sad not only because I’m out of my team only but also for my fellow friends… Now, I’m out of my usual team, I’m one step away from the three that I always admire… Hmmm… Haiz… Speechless… I don’t like this… I got to start all over again… Hmmmm… Now, I got to be with different peoples… hmmm…
Next was my camp… I was extremely excited that because this is my event… We went to Dusun Eco Resort… I never believe that I and my team actually did it… It’s like the first event in my entire life… I know I need a lot of people to teach me this and that… All around me possibly can give good encouragement… But end of everything, I just feel it would be better if I’m on my own… Everyone around me was so much better than me in experience… So damn better than me… Hmmm… But…. Haiz… I know one thing before I go… I’m alone… all alone… Hmmmm… In the camp as well, I was so damn pissed… I can’t do anything... I felt energyless… Pointless… Especially my dearest WL… Do not know what else to do ady… I wanted enjoy to the max… It comes once in my life time… There is no more first time ady… This first time was ruined again… I ruined myself in front of all my besties… It was second fall of this semester… Hmmmm… Two times… Now, it’s done… I hope I can do it all over again… Just seriously, I want to do it all over again... Please… I hope the god hears me… hmmmm…
This two main event has brought down me a lot this semester… Then, CF… I do not what’s the problem between us… Maybe because I talked too much??? Who knows…? I do not know how to tell ady… Please do mind… I’m a human… Everything you said disturb my mind a lot… I do not know what else to tell ady… You are my third fall of this semester… Hmmm… I’m speechless about you… Just hope you doing good… I do not know what the problem is… N I do not know it is problem or not at first of everything… Just, you are my third fall…
Here comes my greatest fall… My dearest WL!!! Oooi!!!!!!!!!!! What happen to you??? You acted seriously damn weird.. Especially this fourth week… a lot of thing I already tell you… I tot you understand everything that I told you… and I was so glad… a felt like I can depend on someone… A felt like my burden was becoming less… but… but……. I din know that whatever you understand is totally different… I waited this Tuesday like I wanted to see what you want to do… But you know what, you are 360 degree away from what I tot you will do… You became someone that I can’t depend on… I can’t talk to you… Your ego still with you... Mine as well… Hmmmm… What the… Hmmmmm… fourth week, my burden all doubled… My worries doubled… my sadness tripled… I become more and more depressed!!! I do not know what to tell ady… Im dying inside… haiz… Im speechless… let me answer your question first… You wanted to know what is difference if whatever you told on Tuesday will be if you tell it out on Sunday right? Hmmmm… Everything is already explained up there ady… I tot you understand everything and you are alright with everything and you agree with my opinion… I do not want you to change fully without understand my meaning properly… That one message is ruining me and you now… Yeah… You did everything… correct... You are good… Can I ask you one thing?? Where is our friendship now?? There is none of it… WL... Please… I know you are very depressed… Everything about you is so damn sad… Hmmmm… Haiz… I don’t like…. I don’t like your blog or whatever message… I don’t like… Act like normal first… That’s the important part.. You are determinant of everything about me and you all… Just decide it… I’m in or I’m out… Haiz… I know how you feel… you can’t run away from me… I DON’T WANT you be sad because of me… DON’T WANT ah… Hey… I want to talk to you… I want you to understand.. Please!!!!! I can’t write anymore… I cannot write anymore ady… I’m superbly sad… Dun worry it’s not because of you… It’s because I just lost myself… I’m drowning again.. Into a huge dark sea… The sea of tears… Trying to swim up and up…
For once, I wanted things to be good back… And that’s how all went wrong… I wanted to treat you all the same… I want to see you all happy… But everything upside down… I’m very sorry everyone… I’m too pissed… I got no time for myself since first week.. im very much in tension… I got so many things to do... I’m depressed… Under geramji!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hmmmm…. Haiz… I dun like this… I just dun like myself anymore… Now, I just don’t like who I am… It’s no longer cool to be me… That’s all… Gonna stop writing… When I’m stop writing, you sit just beside me… It was total different than before… It’s not you.. It’s not me and this is not the world I wanted… It’s all gone… Everything in me just flew away… WL, now, there is one thing I’m very very worried of… If you want to help me.. Do this properly… Study for the next week test…I want to c you score flying colours… I want to c happiness in your face again.. As happy as before… as lovely as before… and last but not least… as my FRIEND as before…
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I’m a bad guy…(13/09/10)
It was around 2am… I haven’t slept… A lot of things running in my mind… One thing for sure… It’s all about memories… I was lying on my bed… Sometimes smile at myself… Sometimes, got angry of myself and asked myself why not I do something better… hmmmm… And then, I was checking all the picture in my handphone… Something was just missing… Her picture… BBCC… A feeli like to look back all our picture… But all those picture is inside my laptop… Was lazy to switch on my lappy… Slowly, I slept off…
Woke up at 1pm… My sweet friend woke me up… Her message woke me up… I slept so long… Hmmmm… It’s another boring day… Quite unusual day… It’s her I think about again… Hmmmm… I told myself to look at files later on… Then, I was quite busy… Quite a lot of things come up… So, for a while i had forgotten about her… I went for my first football in this semester break… I help my sisters in her studies… At around 1am(the next day), I lay down on my bed again and watched the very first harry potter movie… I was on my bed with my lappy… The movies finish around 3am++… Couldn’t sleep… She comes into my mind again… Hmmmm… I open the files again after so long I didn’t thought of opening it… I look through all those picture… It’s like it was once upon a time it happened in my life… I didn’t noe I recovered so much faster if compared to my first one… Quite happy for that… Olden day’s things just came back in my mind… A feeling of hatred all over in my heart… Especially when I thought of the first semester… And I learned about one thing that day… People remember only negative part of others… They never remember what has others helped us in those days… Humans… Another poor minded creature… well… I’m one of it… I can’t help it… After that, I open all those conversation that I saved in lappy … I still remember that I only saved few conversations that make me looked bad… I did that for purpose… Because I do not want to think bad about her or specifically I want to make myself look like bad guy… hahaha… Yea… I read back all those conversations… It’s like I do not know why I was so angry those days till I talked like to her… Hmmmm… I felt like I am a bad guy though… And today, I felt like apologize again… So, here I am to say sorry again… People’s heart changes… My heart is softening back… Thus, I’m sorry… And I saw one of our conversations…. It goes like this… “If one day I know I was wrong, I shall not or must not even think of going back”… That’s what I told…. Hmmmm… And now, I’m still with the same mind… I won’t even think of going back… There is no way I will wanna think of going back… This is what I chose... Even though I’m bad, this is what I want… And THAT’s IT!!!!
Woke up at 1pm… My sweet friend woke me up… Her message woke me up… I slept so long… Hmmmm… It’s another boring day… Quite unusual day… It’s her I think about again… Hmmmm… I told myself to look at files later on… Then, I was quite busy… Quite a lot of things come up… So, for a while i had forgotten about her… I went for my first football in this semester break… I help my sisters in her studies… At around 1am(the next day), I lay down on my bed again and watched the very first harry potter movie… I was on my bed with my lappy… The movies finish around 3am++… Couldn’t sleep… She comes into my mind again… Hmmmm… I open the files again after so long I didn’t thought of opening it… I look through all those picture… It’s like it was once upon a time it happened in my life… I didn’t noe I recovered so much faster if compared to my first one… Quite happy for that… Olden day’s things just came back in my mind… A feeling of hatred all over in my heart… Especially when I thought of the first semester… And I learned about one thing that day… People remember only negative part of others… They never remember what has others helped us in those days… Humans… Another poor minded creature… well… I’m one of it… I can’t help it… After that, I open all those conversation that I saved in lappy … I still remember that I only saved few conversations that make me looked bad… I did that for purpose… Because I do not want to think bad about her or specifically I want to make myself look like bad guy… hahaha… Yea… I read back all those conversations… It’s like I do not know why I was so angry those days till I talked like to her… Hmmmm… I felt like I am a bad guy though… And today, I felt like apologize again… So, here I am to say sorry again… People’s heart changes… My heart is softening back… Thus, I’m sorry… And I saw one of our conversations…. It goes like this… “If one day I know I was wrong, I shall not or must not even think of going back”… That’s what I told…. Hmmmm… And now, I’m still with the same mind… I won’t even think of going back… There is no way I will wanna think of going back… This is what I chose... Even though I’m bad, this is what I want… And THAT’s IT!!!!
4th semester break^^
It is semester break again… Physically everything seems normal… It’s fourth times I brought my exam slip inside exam hall and do finish the damn paper to ensure I achieve my freedom… Ooops… It is boredom… Hmmmm… A lot of things had happened… Everything changes… Yeah of course!!! Things changes as human changes… But the abnormal things are it is a 3 month drastic changes… hmmmm… guess things have to just be like that… one thing for sure… I cannot describe anything about my feeling… It’s also undergoing a drastic change… Every moment, it gives different feeling… There was none of the day that I can be happy the all day… Something sure comes up… I was lying to my friends and most importantly myself… Well!! I can’t help myself… Even now, I’m having a headache… I do not know what to write but I got a lot of things to be expressed out… hmmmm…
Early of this semester, It was a relationship problem… I suffered for few months… It’s was a time where my friends came out to help me… After that, friendship problem came across my life… The problem is still the same… Aaarghh!!! Tension… Why things have to be like this… My only problems are still these girls… Make my life so messy… Sorry for that female species… I do not want to say that… Relationship and even friendship… Great!!! Wonder wouldn’t it would be better if I was all alone in this world?? Hmmmm… Impossible!! I knew I need friends but haiz…
BBCC
BBCC is just gone from my life… She is just not in list anymore… You are officially blacklisted!!! My friends do make me feel that I do not need you anymore… Actually, I wanted to let things go and talk to her after some while… Thanks to her… She makes it impossible… I do not know why she has to do this… Things must always goes on her way… And yet she still talks about why I couldn’t act nice to her… And OMG!!! I need a list from her to tell me about how I suppose to act in front of her… After all the fight, I got to receive message of sorry… Lame!! Why do you even need to start…? And yeah!!! I’m extremely disappointed to you… You told me you want to study… Hahaha… Last minutes are still your style… Hope you feel sorry for talking great… Hope your brother and your new boyfriend is there to support you… Good luck in your life… Maybe my hearts will find you because I can’t lie to myself that I do not know you… God bless you… Especially your mom… Hope she is doing great… Hope everything goes fine in your life…
Ta-chi
Hey cute voice… A lot of things that I should have tell you… But I didn’t do that… Probably, I’m still pissed!! First thing, I’m seriously very sorry for ignore you… And I think I will continue to ignore you… Do not angry on me because this is what you chose… don’t tell me I didn’t come to talk to you… Before everything gets worse, I tried a lot of time to talk to you (mostly in msn)… But your feedback is just what make me got pissed… That’s even where you told me not to care about you… Hmmmm… I tried and I gave up…. First of all, why you have to do this?? And seriously I hate your emoness… One day, you will be damn emo… The other day, you will be okay again… Please don’t live by your feelings… I’ve been die-hearted… It’s was a very long gap since the last time you called me ta-chi… I want to hear it from you again… Hmmmm… I do not why before the last exam you bought me sweet… I do not want to take it… You left it there and I have to take it… Hmmmm… I messaged you a thanks message… Hmmm… You called me ta-chi… That time, I smiled… I couldn’t believe it was you… It was a quite long smile… But the next moment, the smile just fades… Because I know this things won’t last… haiz… When you cried after FA paper, I wish I was beside you to make you feel better… I miss you as my old friend, I do not like the way you are now… I know you got a lot of problem but problem is part of life ar… I hope you won’t make problem as your life… Seriously, I’m looking back for you………
Watermelon lover…
It’s just one semester time, we’ve been very close… A friend like you is just one of a kind in this world… Hmmmm… all the way, you change my feelings… you have been the determinant of my feelings… So, I wish you know… You got to change a lot!!! Seriously damn a lot… I spent almost 75% of semester time with you… Aaargh… Bored of the same person… hahaha… just kidding… Thanks a lot to help me endure at the early of my semester… I appreciated it a lot… You try to help me and you wanted to make me feel better… And that why you always accompany me… thanks to you… I would have been so alone… I can’t imagine what I’ve done… Hmmmm… Just a millions of thanks… And that might not even enough… Hmmmm… Hey… Thanks once more… Basically, I hope you will change… You are very weak now… I’m sorry to make you depend on me so much… Hmmmm… And yea… one last thing, you can stop trying to figure out how I think because I myself couldn’t get an answer for that… At the same time, you make me understand about myself more too… thanks… And watermelon lover, there are still a lot of things in this world that you have to know… You get emo fast now days… You make me pissed quite a lot of times… I do not like when you show face to me… And I Hope to see you happy all the time… And you got to know that a problem is a problem when you see it as a problem… So, take problem easily and I know you manage the problem… I’m not telling that I won’t be beside you… But I’m telling that I’m always being beside you but you should know how to manage it yourself… okay?? Watermelon lover, the memories that we create in this four month is just too much… lolz… I can’t get my eyes out from those pictures… Thanks again… There is my very own wish that I want to ask you for the future… A strong girl… That’s all… Hmmmm… Before I end this part, Watermelon lover, I cared for you the most… I wish to see the change in you… And don’t live by feelings as well…^^ Hmmmm… The day when I go back, you are the only one I don’t even feel like I’m leaving you behind… Because I know the whole semester break you will teman me… I wasn’t that sad after all…^^ Thanks for everything, you monkey…
Fiancee…
All this while, I’ve been admiring you for what you do and everything… Hahaha… You are perfect as always… You are the only one I won’t seriously care about... Because I know you can manage yourself… Hmmmm… Yeah!!! Seriously, I do not like the part where you break up with your boyfriend… That’s the only thing that i was so much unsatisfied with… I mean you are just like care for your own feeling… Hmmmm… I hate that part…. But anyhow, things just happened… I know you got problems… And hey!!! You can always find me… Hmmmm…Why you are hesitating for that??? When that day you message me like that, I felt like you’ve changed also… Hmmmm… Oh my dear fiancée, I believe I do not need to care about you… Because I know you are as awesome as always… And about your studies, I admire the way you studied in first semester… You change but don’t change a lot please… Because you are someone with good things but if you change… POOOOFFF!!! It’s all gone… God bless you with everything that you do… You ask me whether I will support you on everything or not… And my answer will be hell yeah…^^
Juniors…
Hmmmm… Basically, I’m speechless about you guys… Funny, cool and whatever best things…. And I feel cool to be your seniors… lol… People often ask why I ask always hang out with juniors… My answer is who else I got if go back to hostel?? Hmmmm… 1whole semester… WE study together, sleep together even sometime bath at the same time, eat together, football, and care for each other, uno together… Hmmmm… Awesome time we had… This is my first time my hostel life changes… For one year, I was so alone… And this is first time, when I said I want to go back home for the semester break, you guys shook my hand and hug me before I go back… Hmmm… Pretty sad!!! IT was a feeling like I’m being cared… Thanks to all of you… Sorry if I did anything wrong guys…^^
Goldfish…
Sometime I do not know what I’m doing… The feeling towards her is just not growing… I feel like go all the way for you… Hmmm… This is not the time… Let’s wait till your final finish… If we are still good, then, we can think about it… But for now, I’m closing our chapter… But the existence of you, make me feel more lovable and yeah I do like you for the way you are when you proposed to me… A remembrance for you, let time to decide… I’m not going to make any decision for now… But I won’t deny that you make me think a lot about you… I will wait if you are ok with everything…^^ that’s it…^^
Hmmmmm…… A lot of thing is just happening… Hahaha… I think I started to learn how to manage it… It’s good… Probably this is what we called as essence of life… Life is a big experience and a big thrill…^^ Things just not in our way… Hmmmm… Well… I can hope but things won’t always come as my wish… For me, I just don’t want to care for a thing… ant to just let thing go its way… I’m lazy to think about it… Kinda worry about next semester… My camp things… The night things… my studies… Problems… Financially… My tummy could explain what I meant by financial…^^ Well!!! I could just hope… Life with full of hope… Think of going back school… but no point… What I’m going to do there… Everybody got their own life and preparing for exam… Hmmmm… Maybe I will go for the NS reunion and go out for some movies with friends and do some job to get some money…^^ Plan is done… I think I should start the execution part… This semester break isn’t gonna be so bored… I got a lot of things to look back and learn…^^ Let’s learn… The education of life…^^ YYYEEEEAAAHHH!!!! Another new journey…
Early of this semester, It was a relationship problem… I suffered for few months… It’s was a time where my friends came out to help me… After that, friendship problem came across my life… The problem is still the same… Aaarghh!!! Tension… Why things have to be like this… My only problems are still these girls… Make my life so messy… Sorry for that female species… I do not want to say that… Relationship and even friendship… Great!!! Wonder wouldn’t it would be better if I was all alone in this world?? Hmmmm… Impossible!! I knew I need friends but haiz…
BBCC
BBCC is just gone from my life… She is just not in list anymore… You are officially blacklisted!!! My friends do make me feel that I do not need you anymore… Actually, I wanted to let things go and talk to her after some while… Thanks to her… She makes it impossible… I do not know why she has to do this… Things must always goes on her way… And yet she still talks about why I couldn’t act nice to her… And OMG!!! I need a list from her to tell me about how I suppose to act in front of her… After all the fight, I got to receive message of sorry… Lame!! Why do you even need to start…? And yeah!!! I’m extremely disappointed to you… You told me you want to study… Hahaha… Last minutes are still your style… Hope you feel sorry for talking great… Hope your brother and your new boyfriend is there to support you… Good luck in your life… Maybe my hearts will find you because I can’t lie to myself that I do not know you… God bless you… Especially your mom… Hope she is doing great… Hope everything goes fine in your life…
Ta-chi
Hey cute voice… A lot of things that I should have tell you… But I didn’t do that… Probably, I’m still pissed!! First thing, I’m seriously very sorry for ignore you… And I think I will continue to ignore you… Do not angry on me because this is what you chose… don’t tell me I didn’t come to talk to you… Before everything gets worse, I tried a lot of time to talk to you (mostly in msn)… But your feedback is just what make me got pissed… That’s even where you told me not to care about you… Hmmmm… I tried and I gave up…. First of all, why you have to do this?? And seriously I hate your emoness… One day, you will be damn emo… The other day, you will be okay again… Please don’t live by your feelings… I’ve been die-hearted… It’s was a very long gap since the last time you called me ta-chi… I want to hear it from you again… Hmmmm… I do not why before the last exam you bought me sweet… I do not want to take it… You left it there and I have to take it… Hmmmm… I messaged you a thanks message… Hmmm… You called me ta-chi… That time, I smiled… I couldn’t believe it was you… It was a quite long smile… But the next moment, the smile just fades… Because I know this things won’t last… haiz… When you cried after FA paper, I wish I was beside you to make you feel better… I miss you as my old friend, I do not like the way you are now… I know you got a lot of problem but problem is part of life ar… I hope you won’t make problem as your life… Seriously, I’m looking back for you………
Watermelon lover…
It’s just one semester time, we’ve been very close… A friend like you is just one of a kind in this world… Hmmmm… all the way, you change my feelings… you have been the determinant of my feelings… So, I wish you know… You got to change a lot!!! Seriously damn a lot… I spent almost 75% of semester time with you… Aaargh… Bored of the same person… hahaha… just kidding… Thanks a lot to help me endure at the early of my semester… I appreciated it a lot… You try to help me and you wanted to make me feel better… And that why you always accompany me… thanks to you… I would have been so alone… I can’t imagine what I’ve done… Hmmmm… Just a millions of thanks… And that might not even enough… Hmmmm… Hey… Thanks once more… Basically, I hope you will change… You are very weak now… I’m sorry to make you depend on me so much… Hmmmm… And yea… one last thing, you can stop trying to figure out how I think because I myself couldn’t get an answer for that… At the same time, you make me understand about myself more too… thanks… And watermelon lover, there are still a lot of things in this world that you have to know… You get emo fast now days… You make me pissed quite a lot of times… I do not like when you show face to me… And I Hope to see you happy all the time… And you got to know that a problem is a problem when you see it as a problem… So, take problem easily and I know you manage the problem… I’m not telling that I won’t be beside you… But I’m telling that I’m always being beside you but you should know how to manage it yourself… okay?? Watermelon lover, the memories that we create in this four month is just too much… lolz… I can’t get my eyes out from those pictures… Thanks again… There is my very own wish that I want to ask you for the future… A strong girl… That’s all… Hmmmm… Before I end this part, Watermelon lover, I cared for you the most… I wish to see the change in you… And don’t live by feelings as well…^^ Hmmmm… The day when I go back, you are the only one I don’t even feel like I’m leaving you behind… Because I know the whole semester break you will teman me… I wasn’t that sad after all…^^ Thanks for everything, you monkey…
Fiancee…
All this while, I’ve been admiring you for what you do and everything… Hahaha… You are perfect as always… You are the only one I won’t seriously care about... Because I know you can manage yourself… Hmmmm… Yeah!!! Seriously, I do not like the part where you break up with your boyfriend… That’s the only thing that i was so much unsatisfied with… I mean you are just like care for your own feeling… Hmmmm… I hate that part…. But anyhow, things just happened… I know you got problems… And hey!!! You can always find me… Hmmmm…Why you are hesitating for that??? When that day you message me like that, I felt like you’ve changed also… Hmmmm… Oh my dear fiancée, I believe I do not need to care about you… Because I know you are as awesome as always… And about your studies, I admire the way you studied in first semester… You change but don’t change a lot please… Because you are someone with good things but if you change… POOOOFFF!!! It’s all gone… God bless you with everything that you do… You ask me whether I will support you on everything or not… And my answer will be hell yeah…^^
Juniors…
Hmmmm… Basically, I’m speechless about you guys… Funny, cool and whatever best things…. And I feel cool to be your seniors… lol… People often ask why I ask always hang out with juniors… My answer is who else I got if go back to hostel?? Hmmmm… 1whole semester… WE study together, sleep together even sometime bath at the same time, eat together, football, and care for each other, uno together… Hmmmm… Awesome time we had… This is my first time my hostel life changes… For one year, I was so alone… And this is first time, when I said I want to go back home for the semester break, you guys shook my hand and hug me before I go back… Hmmm… Pretty sad!!! IT was a feeling like I’m being cared… Thanks to all of you… Sorry if I did anything wrong guys…^^
Goldfish…
Sometime I do not know what I’m doing… The feeling towards her is just not growing… I feel like go all the way for you… Hmmm… This is not the time… Let’s wait till your final finish… If we are still good, then, we can think about it… But for now, I’m closing our chapter… But the existence of you, make me feel more lovable and yeah I do like you for the way you are when you proposed to me… A remembrance for you, let time to decide… I’m not going to make any decision for now… But I won’t deny that you make me think a lot about you… I will wait if you are ok with everything…^^ that’s it…^^
Hmmmmm…… A lot of thing is just happening… Hahaha… I think I started to learn how to manage it… It’s good… Probably this is what we called as essence of life… Life is a big experience and a big thrill…^^ Things just not in our way… Hmmmm… Well… I can hope but things won’t always come as my wish… For me, I just don’t want to care for a thing… ant to just let thing go its way… I’m lazy to think about it… Kinda worry about next semester… My camp things… The night things… my studies… Problems… Financially… My tummy could explain what I meant by financial…^^ Well!!! I could just hope… Life with full of hope… Think of going back school… but no point… What I’m going to do there… Everybody got their own life and preparing for exam… Hmmmm… Maybe I will go for the NS reunion and go out for some movies with friends and do some job to get some money…^^ Plan is done… I think I should start the execution part… This semester break isn’t gonna be so bored… I got a lot of things to look back and learn…^^ Let’s learn… The education of life…^^ YYYEEEEAAAHHH!!!! Another new journey…
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
WHY things have to be like this????(16/8/10)
A very very bad start for this week... Last Sunday and Saturday... I make up my mind that this week my ultimate is not that i have to revise my studies or i'm must finish my society thing but to make my sweet best friend to have some happy moments together especially this Thursday!!! But things always doesn't come our way... haiz...
On the first day itself... everything went wrong... Basically it's about the noob LRT service again... Aaaarrrggghhh! Lazy to talk about it... It was a total bad day... being ignored by the close ones... that day, after i reach my room something very bad happen... After a long bad day, i came into room... I put down my bag... I lie down on my bed... Just a moment before i lie down... The heart-shaped phone chain thing which was a present from her broke down and fall off to the ground... Oh my god!!!!!! I took care of the thing like my own baby.... That moment was superbly sad... I couldn't do anything... It was so sad... Haiz.... That moment i couldn't think of anything else except her... Things never been this worse ryte???? The heart fallen day... extremely sad...
To my dear friend... I do not know what to tell... Everything seems wrong today... I don't wanna argue about it... And HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks yea... For everything... I make me pissed... but only for that moment... After that, everything is alright... I just hope you will be OK and of cos help me on this Thursday ultimate goal...^^ OK??? Hehe... and help me in my studies yea... I need help on my MAF!!!!!!!!! Millions of thanks wouldn't be enough for you... hmmmmm.... But just thanks, my dear friend...^^
On the first day itself... everything went wrong... Basically it's about the noob LRT service again... Aaaarrrggghhh! Lazy to talk about it... It was a total bad day... being ignored by the close ones... that day, after i reach my room something very bad happen... After a long bad day, i came into room... I put down my bag... I lie down on my bed... Just a moment before i lie down... The heart-shaped phone chain thing which was a present from her broke down and fall off to the ground... Oh my god!!!!!! I took care of the thing like my own baby.... That moment was superbly sad... I couldn't do anything... It was so sad... Haiz.... That moment i couldn't think of anything else except her... Things never been this worse ryte???? The heart fallen day... extremely sad...
To my dear friend... I do not know what to tell... Everything seems wrong today... I don't wanna argue about it... And HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks yea... For everything... I make me pissed... but only for that moment... After that, everything is alright... I just hope you will be OK and of cos help me on this Thursday ultimate goal...^^ OK??? Hehe... and help me in my studies yea... I need help on my MAF!!!!!!!!! Millions of thanks wouldn't be enough for you... hmmmmm.... But just thanks, my dear friend...^^
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