It is semester break again… Physically everything seems normal… It’s fourth times I brought my exam slip inside exam hall and do finish the damn paper to ensure I achieve my freedom… Ooops… It is boredom… Hmmmm… A lot of things had happened… Everything changes… Yeah of course!!! Things changes as human changes… But the abnormal things are it is a 3 month drastic changes… hmmmm… guess things have to just be like that… one thing for sure… I cannot describe anything about my feeling… It’s also undergoing a drastic change… Every moment, it gives different feeling… There was none of the day that I can be happy the all day… Something sure comes up… I was lying to my friends and most importantly myself… Well!! I can’t help myself… Even now, I’m having a headache… I do not know what to write but I got a lot of things to be expressed out… hmmmm…
Early of this semester, It was a relationship problem… I suffered for few months… It’s was a time where my friends came out to help me… After that, friendship problem came across my life… The problem is still the same… Aaarghh!!! Tension… Why things have to be like this… My only problems are still these girls… Make my life so messy… Sorry for that female species… I do not want to say that… Relationship and even friendship… Great!!! Wonder wouldn’t it would be better if I was all alone in this world?? Hmmmm… Impossible!! I knew I need friends but haiz…
BBCC
BBCC is just gone from my life… She is just not in list anymore… You are officially blacklisted!!! My friends do make me feel that I do not need you anymore… Actually, I wanted to let things go and talk to her after some while… Thanks to her… She makes it impossible… I do not know why she has to do this… Things must always goes on her way… And yet she still talks about why I couldn’t act nice to her… And OMG!!! I need a list from her to tell me about how I suppose to act in front of her… After all the fight, I got to receive message of sorry… Lame!! Why do you even need to start…? And yeah!!! I’m extremely disappointed to you… You told me you want to study… Hahaha… Last minutes are still your style… Hope you feel sorry for talking great… Hope your brother and your new boyfriend is there to support you… Good luck in your life… Maybe my hearts will find you because I can’t lie to myself that I do not know you… God bless you… Especially your mom… Hope she is doing great… Hope everything goes fine in your life…
Ta-chi
Hey cute voice… A lot of things that I should have tell you… But I didn’t do that… Probably, I’m still pissed!! First thing, I’m seriously very sorry for ignore you… And I think I will continue to ignore you… Do not angry on me because this is what you chose… don’t tell me I didn’t come to talk to you… Before everything gets worse, I tried a lot of time to talk to you (mostly in msn)… But your feedback is just what make me got pissed… That’s even where you told me not to care about you… Hmmmm… I tried and I gave up…. First of all, why you have to do this?? And seriously I hate your emoness… One day, you will be damn emo… The other day, you will be okay again… Please don’t live by your feelings… I’ve been die-hearted… It’s was a very long gap since the last time you called me ta-chi… I want to hear it from you again… Hmmmm… I do not why before the last exam you bought me sweet… I do not want to take it… You left it there and I have to take it… Hmmmm… I messaged you a thanks message… Hmmm… You called me ta-chi… That time, I smiled… I couldn’t believe it was you… It was a quite long smile… But the next moment, the smile just fades… Because I know this things won’t last… haiz… When you cried after FA paper, I wish I was beside you to make you feel better… I miss you as my old friend, I do not like the way you are now… I know you got a lot of problem but problem is part of life ar… I hope you won’t make problem as your life… Seriously, I’m looking back for you………
Watermelon lover…
It’s just one semester time, we’ve been very close… A friend like you is just one of a kind in this world… Hmmmm… all the way, you change my feelings… you have been the determinant of my feelings… So, I wish you know… You got to change a lot!!! Seriously damn a lot… I spent almost 75% of semester time with you… Aaargh… Bored of the same person… hahaha… just kidding… Thanks a lot to help me endure at the early of my semester… I appreciated it a lot… You try to help me and you wanted to make me feel better… And that why you always accompany me… thanks to you… I would have been so alone… I can’t imagine what I’ve done… Hmmmm… Just a millions of thanks… And that might not even enough… Hmmmm… Hey… Thanks once more… Basically, I hope you will change… You are very weak now… I’m sorry to make you depend on me so much… Hmmmm… And yea… one last thing, you can stop trying to figure out how I think because I myself couldn’t get an answer for that… At the same time, you make me understand about myself more too… thanks… And watermelon lover, there are still a lot of things in this world that you have to know… You get emo fast now days… You make me pissed quite a lot of times… I do not like when you show face to me… And I Hope to see you happy all the time… And you got to know that a problem is a problem when you see it as a problem… So, take problem easily and I know you manage the problem… I’m not telling that I won’t be beside you… But I’m telling that I’m always being beside you but you should know how to manage it yourself… okay?? Watermelon lover, the memories that we create in this four month is just too much… lolz… I can’t get my eyes out from those pictures… Thanks again… There is my very own wish that I want to ask you for the future… A strong girl… That’s all… Hmmmm… Before I end this part, Watermelon lover, I cared for you the most… I wish to see the change in you… And don’t live by feelings as well…^^ Hmmmm… The day when I go back, you are the only one I don’t even feel like I’m leaving you behind… Because I know the whole semester break you will teman me… I wasn’t that sad after all…^^ Thanks for everything, you monkey…
Fiancee…
All this while, I’ve been admiring you for what you do and everything… Hahaha… You are perfect as always… You are the only one I won’t seriously care about... Because I know you can manage yourself… Hmmmm… Yeah!!! Seriously, I do not like the part where you break up with your boyfriend… That’s the only thing that i was so much unsatisfied with… I mean you are just like care for your own feeling… Hmmmm… I hate that part…. But anyhow, things just happened… I know you got problems… And hey!!! You can always find me… Hmmmm…Why you are hesitating for that??? When that day you message me like that, I felt like you’ve changed also… Hmmmm… Oh my dear fiancée, I believe I do not need to care about you… Because I know you are as awesome as always… And about your studies, I admire the way you studied in first semester… You change but don’t change a lot please… Because you are someone with good things but if you change… POOOOFFF!!! It’s all gone… God bless you with everything that you do… You ask me whether I will support you on everything or not… And my answer will be hell yeah…^^
Juniors…
Hmmmm… Basically, I’m speechless about you guys… Funny, cool and whatever best things…. And I feel cool to be your seniors… lol… People often ask why I ask always hang out with juniors… My answer is who else I got if go back to hostel?? Hmmmm… 1whole semester… WE study together, sleep together even sometime bath at the same time, eat together, football, and care for each other, uno together… Hmmmm… Awesome time we had… This is my first time my hostel life changes… For one year, I was so alone… And this is first time, when I said I want to go back home for the semester break, you guys shook my hand and hug me before I go back… Hmmm… Pretty sad!!! IT was a feeling like I’m being cared… Thanks to all of you… Sorry if I did anything wrong guys…^^
Goldfish…
Sometime I do not know what I’m doing… The feeling towards her is just not growing… I feel like go all the way for you… Hmmm… This is not the time… Let’s wait till your final finish… If we are still good, then, we can think about it… But for now, I’m closing our chapter… But the existence of you, make me feel more lovable and yeah I do like you for the way you are when you proposed to me… A remembrance for you, let time to decide… I’m not going to make any decision for now… But I won’t deny that you make me think a lot about you… I will wait if you are ok with everything…^^ that’s it…^^
Hmmmmm…… A lot of thing is just happening… Hahaha… I think I started to learn how to manage it… It’s good… Probably this is what we called as essence of life… Life is a big experience and a big thrill…^^ Things just not in our way… Hmmmm… Well… I can hope but things won’t always come as my wish… For me, I just don’t want to care for a thing… ant to just let thing go its way… I’m lazy to think about it… Kinda worry about next semester… My camp things… The night things… my studies… Problems… Financially… My tummy could explain what I meant by financial…^^ Well!!! I could just hope… Life with full of hope… Think of going back school… but no point… What I’m going to do there… Everybody got their own life and preparing for exam… Hmmmm… Maybe I will go for the NS reunion and go out for some movies with friends and do some job to get some money…^^ Plan is done… I think I should start the execution part… This semester break isn’t gonna be so bored… I got a lot of things to look back and learn…^^ Let’s learn… The education of life…^^ YYYEEEEAAAHHH!!!! Another new journey…
Black Sky
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
WHY things have to be like this????(16/8/10)
A very very bad start for this week... Last Sunday and Saturday... I make up my mind that this week my ultimate is not that i have to revise my studies or i'm must finish my society thing but to make my sweet best friend to have some happy moments together especially this Thursday!!! But things always doesn't come our way... haiz...
On the first day itself... everything went wrong... Basically it's about the noob LRT service again... Aaaarrrggghhh! Lazy to talk about it... It was a total bad day... being ignored by the close ones... that day, after i reach my room something very bad happen... After a long bad day, i came into room... I put down my bag... I lie down on my bed... Just a moment before i lie down... The heart-shaped phone chain thing which was a present from her broke down and fall off to the ground... Oh my god!!!!!! I took care of the thing like my own baby.... That moment was superbly sad... I couldn't do anything... It was so sad... Haiz.... That moment i couldn't think of anything else except her... Things never been this worse ryte???? The heart fallen day... extremely sad...
To my dear friend... I do not know what to tell... Everything seems wrong today... I don't wanna argue about it... And HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks yea... For everything... I make me pissed... but only for that moment... After that, everything is alright... I just hope you will be OK and of cos help me on this Thursday ultimate goal...^^ OK??? Hehe... and help me in my studies yea... I need help on my MAF!!!!!!!!! Millions of thanks wouldn't be enough for you... hmmmmm.... But just thanks, my dear friend...^^
On the first day itself... everything went wrong... Basically it's about the noob LRT service again... Aaaarrrggghhh! Lazy to talk about it... It was a total bad day... being ignored by the close ones... that day, after i reach my room something very bad happen... After a long bad day, i came into room... I put down my bag... I lie down on my bed... Just a moment before i lie down... The heart-shaped phone chain thing which was a present from her broke down and fall off to the ground... Oh my god!!!!!! I took care of the thing like my own baby.... That moment was superbly sad... I couldn't do anything... It was so sad... Haiz.... That moment i couldn't think of anything else except her... Things never been this worse ryte???? The heart fallen day... extremely sad...
To my dear friend... I do not know what to tell... Everything seems wrong today... I don't wanna argue about it... And HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks yea... For everything... I make me pissed... but only for that moment... After that, everything is alright... I just hope you will be OK and of cos help me on this Thursday ultimate goal...^^ OK??? Hehe... and help me in my studies yea... I need help on my MAF!!!!!!!!! Millions of thanks wouldn't be enough for you... hmmmmm.... But just thanks, my dear friend...^^
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
The day I ran away from problem!!
Hmmm… It’s been so weird… The whole day I wasn’t so good… I feel something bad… This more toward to my sixth sense… A lot of problems in my mind… I couldn’t get a way to settle down with my problems. It’s just a problem. I took it easy as usual… In a way it was cool… I kept on thinking about it that day… Nothing about BBCC…^^ Hmmmm… Out of a sudden, my dad called me asks me whether want to go back home not… it was abit unusual if I go back on that day… it was Tuesday… I used to go back on weekend… and I usually think a lot to go back… I did went back...
This was what happens when I start to think a lot… On the way back, I felt I’m like running away from the entire problem… My reason to go back was just to go back home to get a proper sleep… Noobnya!!! And the coolest part among all of it on the day was I couldn’t even get to sleep properly… Although I slept for quite a long hour(it was enough for me), my eyes simply was just too tired… Hmmm… My mom woke me up… She asked quite a lot of questions for why I came back and everything… Hmmmm… Mom, I do not how answer your entire question… I do love you all deep inside…^^
Come to my problem part…. I always don’t like to tell out my problems because I do not wish people to see I cannot handle my problem… at the same time, I can handle this entire problem… Everything is hjust because time…. Time is my biggest enemy for now… First, my studies… my assignment and studies… My accounts papers, tax, entrepreneurship, and finance!!! My time is just not enough for me to finish it up… second, society… My camp things… I’m like abit scared to let my friends to do it… It make worry when we didn’t get the reply from the camp management… Not enough time lor… I must finish it end of this month… AAAARGH!!!!! Third, Friendship… Not a very big problem… It’s just one of them out of so many friends of mine… Hope the way you think can make you feel ok… In my eyes, you are just a failure… And I’m superbly sad for how you are thinking… Good if you are okay! God bless you, friend!! And lastly, me!!! This few days, I’m like so blur in everything… Hmmmm… My test results weren’t as I expected… SXXT… I’m worried… at the same time, I’m not worried… Haiz… I do not know… But whatever it is… My problems will be solved… I will be okay… just fine… God bless me… Hmmm… Yeah… Forget to tell how I felt the whole day… I was very happy in the way of sad…^^
End of this post…~^^~
V(^@^)V
This was what happens when I start to think a lot… On the way back, I felt I’m like running away from the entire problem… My reason to go back was just to go back home to get a proper sleep… Noobnya!!! And the coolest part among all of it on the day was I couldn’t even get to sleep properly… Although I slept for quite a long hour(it was enough for me), my eyes simply was just too tired… Hmmm… My mom woke me up… She asked quite a lot of questions for why I came back and everything… Hmmmm… Mom, I do not how answer your entire question… I do love you all deep inside…^^
Come to my problem part…. I always don’t like to tell out my problems because I do not wish people to see I cannot handle my problem… at the same time, I can handle this entire problem… Everything is hjust because time…. Time is my biggest enemy for now… First, my studies… my assignment and studies… My accounts papers, tax, entrepreneurship, and finance!!! My time is just not enough for me to finish it up… second, society… My camp things… I’m like abit scared to let my friends to do it… It make worry when we didn’t get the reply from the camp management… Not enough time lor… I must finish it end of this month… AAAARGH!!!!! Third, Friendship… Not a very big problem… It’s just one of them out of so many friends of mine… Hope the way you think can make you feel ok… In my eyes, you are just a failure… And I’m superbly sad for how you are thinking… Good if you are okay! God bless you, friend!! And lastly, me!!! This few days, I’m like so blur in everything… Hmmmm… My test results weren’t as I expected… SXXT… I’m worried… at the same time, I’m not worried… Haiz… I do not know… But whatever it is… My problems will be solved… I will be okay… just fine… God bless me… Hmmm… Yeah… Forget to tell how I felt the whole day… I was very happy in the way of sad…^^
End of this post…~^^~
V(^@^)V
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Blur-ing moment of my life!! Decision time, Goldfish!!
Oh gosh… A simple thing that could get my life alive back… Couldn’t believe that I am so lovable…=.= I’m not going to do flashback of stories between us in this blog… It’s gonna be short and sweet…
I get to go back my beloved alma mater (secondary school) to attend prefect’s family day… This event actually does call back all the seniors to go back school and have some fun…^^ The whole event was superb… Everything was all perfect until I get a shocking message from my junior-Goldfish the next day… Oh my god… You made me speechless… And now itself, I do not know where to start…
Ooi, you made my day happy back... That is something for sure… At the same time, you make me feel so messed up… And I never had been this blur... Thank you… It’s something very new… I’m laughing at myself… I do not know how to explain here… Haha… Hey… I still can’t get why I am thinking about it so much… I’m asking my best friends about this thing… As in whether should or should not?
And somehow, this is my decision…. Goldfish… I do like you… I gonna do my best for you… And listen… I don’t want get a correct girl at the wrong time… You are a correct girl but I kinda feel like it’s wrong time… At the same time, I don’t want to lose you… I need to know how you feel right now… And then, we get to know each other more and better… The love has to be there… As I said before, the feelings have to be there… I need something more from you… Maybe we should go for some date together and learn about each other more… how if suddenly you don’t like me? Anything can happen… Read through my blog and you will understand why I say this… I want a long relation… I’m just scared to be committing in another relation… I know I could say a yes now itself to you… But what is the point if I don’t feel it? You get me? I want you to be straight to me… Tell me if anything… I want to know what you think… As I said, I do always respect girls’ decision… By the way you message me, you seem to be far more mature but I feel like you still underestimating the future… I want you think again for better… I am promising my best for you… And can you do that too? That’s all I want to know… I’m not telling time will make the decision but I’m telling we will be good in time… it's confidence... if you dun understand message me… ok?
Goldfish… The more I think about you, you could just get so much adorable… I do not understand why… I got to talk to you or atleast meet you… I could only hope things will get good between us… And seriously, you are different if I compare to both of the ex gf… It keeps me strong that I gonna love you more… And yeah!! I would be waiting for your final decision… It’s all on your words now… I promise to give my best… We need time… We do really need time… Are you ok with what I say? I would be waiting for your message after you read this… Do reply me… Thanks…
I get to go back my beloved alma mater (secondary school) to attend prefect’s family day… This event actually does call back all the seniors to go back school and have some fun…^^ The whole event was superb… Everything was all perfect until I get a shocking message from my junior-Goldfish the next day… Oh my god… You made me speechless… And now itself, I do not know where to start…
Ooi, you made my day happy back... That is something for sure… At the same time, you make me feel so messed up… And I never had been this blur... Thank you… It’s something very new… I’m laughing at myself… I do not know how to explain here… Haha… Hey… I still can’t get why I am thinking about it so much… I’m asking my best friends about this thing… As in whether should or should not?
And somehow, this is my decision…. Goldfish… I do like you… I gonna do my best for you… And listen… I don’t want get a correct girl at the wrong time… You are a correct girl but I kinda feel like it’s wrong time… At the same time, I don’t want to lose you… I need to know how you feel right now… And then, we get to know each other more and better… The love has to be there… As I said before, the feelings have to be there… I need something more from you… Maybe we should go for some date together and learn about each other more… how if suddenly you don’t like me? Anything can happen… Read through my blog and you will understand why I say this… I want a long relation… I’m just scared to be committing in another relation… I know I could say a yes now itself to you… But what is the point if I don’t feel it? You get me? I want you to be straight to me… Tell me if anything… I want to know what you think… As I said, I do always respect girls’ decision… By the way you message me, you seem to be far more mature but I feel like you still underestimating the future… I want you think again for better… I am promising my best for you… And can you do that too? That’s all I want to know… I’m not telling time will make the decision but I’m telling we will be good in time… it's confidence... if you dun understand message me… ok?
Goldfish… The more I think about you, you could just get so much adorable… I do not understand why… I got to talk to you or atleast meet you… I could only hope things will get good between us… And seriously, you are different if I compare to both of the ex gf… It keeps me strong that I gonna love you more… And yeah!! I would be waiting for your final decision… It’s all on your words now… I promise to give my best… We need time… We do really need time… Are you ok with what I say? I would be waiting for your message after you read this… Do reply me… Thanks…
Monday, June 21, 2010
Past few weeks (7th June-20thJune)
Woh! It’s been so long since the last time I blogged… Seriously been very busy… Haha… but somehow I love it man… Start from 7th June, we had a fundraising activity… It’s been so cool and of course it was a very successful event… Things were so normal that few days… Hardly saw BBCC… so, it was quite convincing… Neither was sad nor happy… My night time is filled with new juniors… They all are so fun to be with it… I love them all… We.ve been sleeping together, study together, bath together (different bathroom lar)… hehe… And then, world cup kick off on Friday… it was a mess on that day… I was in library till 8am… was studying… one of my junior suddenly calls me up and told me about the kick off… OMG… I rush back with one of my besties, XY to hostel and my clumsy juniors was still sleeping… I woke them up… straight rush to XXX restaurant… hehehe… Was a great kick off man!!! Oh yeah… Forgotten about one of my besties’ bf birthday… it was somewhere around Wednesday… she actually went up stage and sang a love song for her bf… Omg!!! It was damn super sweet… And when she came down from the stage, his bf actually hugged her and kissed her… Oh man!!! Super dupers sweet… wish I could get a gf like that… hehe… Stop dreaming, darkangel…^^
The next day, was ACCAconference… It was damn fun… get to meet new friends from different branch college… Play games together… and the best part was when I was chosen as group leader… I don’t want it though, but somehow have to… I always want to see how I actually am if I was a follower… I know I would screw it up… I am so happy that day…
The next day (Sunday~13th June), orphanage visitation day… Emotionful day… Morning itself, I got so damn pissed with the management team… Actually it was my society… Sorry, Fool… I got no choice… I just got damn pissed with you too… I still couldn’t understand what’s wrong with you… And since you are not even talking to me properly to me after I explain to you that I got pissed… But whatever lar… It seems like you are not that one wrong… I don’t understand this girl… Whatever lar… I’m sorry… It’s my fault… Hope you forgive me… haiz… And then, it was a quite important day on that night itself… It was the night where I have to do a table talk meeting with my three girls… I was so glad after that day… thanks to three of you girls…^^ And Fool, I hope we could be ok back…^^
Things were just so fine… Daytime, college and busy… Night time, busy with juniors… My days filled… Recently, I’m too close with XY… I do not know why… She fills my day… She helps me a lot… At the same time, I wish I could help her get through whatever things that she undergoing… I do not know how express my thanks to her… Millions of thanks wouldn’t be enough to thank her… Everyone says it’s hard to find one true friend… Haha… To everyone in this world!!! I found my true friend, people!!!
And then, BBCC again… I do not know why I have to meet her again… it’s not that I don’t like… it’s me getting extremely down… at where, I have to sing a sad song al over again… I see her as my friend… and that’s all… But why in the world, she has to bring this new guy to hostel everytime?? I know I shouldn’t be sad… But I cannot mar... Something in me has to die… Hey you, if you somehow read my blog again… I wish you could go for your date at different place where I would never see both of you k… Get LOST from my life, you tuuuuuuuuut!!! Get a life… (Sorry… I’m just so damn pissed, angry, sad, very sad… it means for no one… I’m shouting at myself)
Overally, I’m very happy with myself… But it’s another Sunday again… I’m at home writing this… It’s midnight… Everyone should be sleeping… And Sunday night is the night I couldn’t sleep properly… Probably because I’m in trauma again… Trauma of things that’s done… Hahaha… I know I can overcome this… I will do it… Hereby I’m darkangel showing my fullest gratitude towards these few people… the three girls especially XY whose being so nice to me and who understand me so much and who always do make me smile for them and they are the one who could make my heart to be happy… No wonder you girls are my number1… second to my new hostel team who I being lepak with… You guys are second people… Love you guys a lot… My kaur as fun to be with as always… Candy, unpredictable as always and the juniors… You guys are awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I bet you all gonna make me say who the hell is BBCC when I have you all!!!!!!!!! Thanks buddies…
The next day, was ACCAconference… It was damn fun… get to meet new friends from different branch college… Play games together… and the best part was when I was chosen as group leader… I don’t want it though, but somehow have to… I always want to see how I actually am if I was a follower… I know I would screw it up… I am so happy that day…
The next day (Sunday~13th June), orphanage visitation day… Emotionful day… Morning itself, I got so damn pissed with the management team… Actually it was my society… Sorry, Fool… I got no choice… I just got damn pissed with you too… I still couldn’t understand what’s wrong with you… And since you are not even talking to me properly to me after I explain to you that I got pissed… But whatever lar… It seems like you are not that one wrong… I don’t understand this girl… Whatever lar… I’m sorry… It’s my fault… Hope you forgive me… haiz… And then, it was a quite important day on that night itself… It was the night where I have to do a table talk meeting with my three girls… I was so glad after that day… thanks to three of you girls…^^ And Fool, I hope we could be ok back…^^
Things were just so fine… Daytime, college and busy… Night time, busy with juniors… My days filled… Recently, I’m too close with XY… I do not know why… She fills my day… She helps me a lot… At the same time, I wish I could help her get through whatever things that she undergoing… I do not know how express my thanks to her… Millions of thanks wouldn’t be enough to thank her… Everyone says it’s hard to find one true friend… Haha… To everyone in this world!!! I found my true friend, people!!!
And then, BBCC again… I do not know why I have to meet her again… it’s not that I don’t like… it’s me getting extremely down… at where, I have to sing a sad song al over again… I see her as my friend… and that’s all… But why in the world, she has to bring this new guy to hostel everytime?? I know I shouldn’t be sad… But I cannot mar... Something in me has to die… Hey you, if you somehow read my blog again… I wish you could go for your date at different place where I would never see both of you k… Get LOST from my life, you tuuuuuuuuut!!! Get a life… (Sorry… I’m just so damn pissed, angry, sad, very sad… it means for no one… I’m shouting at myself)
Overally, I’m very happy with myself… But it’s another Sunday again… I’m at home writing this… It’s midnight… Everyone should be sleeping… And Sunday night is the night I couldn’t sleep properly… Probably because I’m in trauma again… Trauma of things that’s done… Hahaha… I know I can overcome this… I will do it… Hereby I’m darkangel showing my fullest gratitude towards these few people… the three girls especially XY whose being so nice to me and who understand me so much and who always do make me smile for them and they are the one who could make my heart to be happy… No wonder you girls are my number1… second to my new hostel team who I being lepak with… You guys are second people… Love you guys a lot… My kaur as fun to be with as always… Candy, unpredictable as always and the juniors… You guys are awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I bet you all gonna make me say who the hell is BBCC when I have you all!!!!!!!!! Thanks buddies…
Monday, June 7, 2010
Q: Darkangel, how do you feel today? A: Happy and touched^^ (3th June)
The second day of interview… hehe… I woke up early in the morning and prepare to go college to interview my juniors as usual… As usual before I go college, I will check whether her car is there not… it was there… It was like a great start… haha… felt like quite boring to go college as well because my three besties went to work… haiz…
After finishing the first session of interview, I went to lecture… It was my only lecture of the day… And somehow it was like the microphone got problem… He can’t teach and class got cancelled… Went to eat with my friends… Hmmmm… Then, went to the second interview session… Had some great time interview the newbies and chatting with my friends as usual… the whole way it was like, I was so relax… No tension… Sometime, I do thought of her and felt happy and sad…^^hahaha… It was like nothing unusual things happened but it was some different feeling in me…
After the interview, I thought my day going to be boring again… on the way, I saw my juniors… We planned to go temple at night… one of juniors was actually want to join college football team… meantime, I and the other junior went to college cyber centre to use internet… I thought of reading one of my besties’s blog… She actually ignored me for the whole day on Tuesday… I can see she got problem and she is suffering with her problems… Hmmmm… I opened her blog and read… I felt so touched… The whole blog, she wrote for me to understand what happened… XY, please stop saying sorry also… I just hope to talk to you on Monday after you are back from work… I do not know why you care for me so much… You do things for me before I ask you to. Eventhough if you got problems, you will never forget my things... OMG!! Thanks!!! Haiz… it’s not enough to write down what you did… But this is from bottom of my heart, thank you a lot for taking care of me like this, XY… I really felt touched… I couldn’t describe how I felt this time either… Thank a lot for that RM3 coins and naruto…
After done surfing nets, we went back mandi then straight went to temple… It started to rain… We went to temple with the help of our umbrella…^^ It was like something new to me... AAaarrrgghh!!! I couldn’t explain those feeling again… hahaha… Highlight of the day was in temple… At temple, I met my kaur… She was there too with her another friend… Hmmm… After done praying, there was some bhajan song played by a group of boys… It was so nice to listen to that… Suddenly, there was an Illaiyaraja song playing in me…. Lol… Just kidding… I saw this girl… she came with her mom… Her mom was a chinese… That even why it makes me look… Hmmmm… not bad… She is pretty… lol… Hahaha… Okok… The whole way we was talking bout this girl… ok… Leave her and continue with our story… I, My kaur, her friend and those juniors around 7ppl all together including us, we went to have our dinner at wangsa…
After our dinner, I actually got to meet my three besties… They all were just got back from their work… Felt bad for not even to talk to them properly… Hahaha... Then, we walk all the way back from wangsa to hostel… The whole way, we had a fun time playing, singing and my kaur was kinda like dancing… lol… Damn fun… When we reach hostel, it was like around 11+pm… All was like looking at us and wonder why we’re in temple so long… hehehe… It was so fun by the way… After change our clothes and put my clothes in washing machine, I and one of junior actually went to meet kaur to get back my laptop… We were talking stories and chatting and making jokes till around 2pm…
I slept at around 3am after done hanging my shirts and after some small emergency… haha… The whole I will tell I was very happy… Sorry because I can’t explain my feeling well in this blog… It was a whole fun day… And as well as touched when think of XY… My hearts going to burst with the overflow thanka to you, XY…^^ Thanks to my juniors, my kaur, her friend (Candy), XY, and those who spend their time with me at the interview room...^^ Thanks all of you… I had a great day…^^
After finishing the first session of interview, I went to lecture… It was my only lecture of the day… And somehow it was like the microphone got problem… He can’t teach and class got cancelled… Went to eat with my friends… Hmmmm… Then, went to the second interview session… Had some great time interview the newbies and chatting with my friends as usual… the whole way it was like, I was so relax… No tension… Sometime, I do thought of her and felt happy and sad…^^hahaha… It was like nothing unusual things happened but it was some different feeling in me…
After the interview, I thought my day going to be boring again… on the way, I saw my juniors… We planned to go temple at night… one of juniors was actually want to join college football team… meantime, I and the other junior went to college cyber centre to use internet… I thought of reading one of my besties’s blog… She actually ignored me for the whole day on Tuesday… I can see she got problem and she is suffering with her problems… Hmmmm… I opened her blog and read… I felt so touched… The whole blog, she wrote for me to understand what happened… XY, please stop saying sorry also… I just hope to talk to you on Monday after you are back from work… I do not know why you care for me so much… You do things for me before I ask you to. Eventhough if you got problems, you will never forget my things... OMG!! Thanks!!! Haiz… it’s not enough to write down what you did… But this is from bottom of my heart, thank you a lot for taking care of me like this, XY… I really felt touched… I couldn’t describe how I felt this time either… Thank a lot for that RM3 coins and naruto…
After done surfing nets, we went back mandi then straight went to temple… It started to rain… We went to temple with the help of our umbrella…^^ It was like something new to me... AAaarrrgghh!!! I couldn’t explain those feeling again… hahaha… Highlight of the day was in temple… At temple, I met my kaur… She was there too with her another friend… Hmmm… After done praying, there was some bhajan song played by a group of boys… It was so nice to listen to that… Suddenly, there was an Illaiyaraja song playing in me…. Lol… Just kidding… I saw this girl… she came with her mom… Her mom was a chinese… That even why it makes me look… Hmmmm… not bad… She is pretty… lol… Hahaha… Okok… The whole way we was talking bout this girl… ok… Leave her and continue with our story… I, My kaur, her friend and those juniors around 7ppl all together including us, we went to have our dinner at wangsa…
After our dinner, I actually got to meet my three besties… They all were just got back from their work… Felt bad for not even to talk to them properly… Hahaha... Then, we walk all the way back from wangsa to hostel… The whole way, we had a fun time playing, singing and my kaur was kinda like dancing… lol… Damn fun… When we reach hostel, it was like around 11+pm… All was like looking at us and wonder why we’re in temple so long… hehehe… It was so fun by the way… After change our clothes and put my clothes in washing machine, I and one of junior actually went to meet kaur to get back my laptop… We were talking stories and chatting and making jokes till around 2pm…
I slept at around 3am after done hanging my shirts and after some small emergency… haha… The whole I will tell I was very happy… Sorry because I can’t explain my feeling well in this blog… It was a whole fun day… And as well as touched when think of XY… My hearts going to burst with the overflow thanka to you, XY…^^ Thanks to my juniors, my kaur, her friend (Candy), XY, and those who spend their time with me at the interview room...^^ Thanks all of you… I had a great day…^^
The remake of first semester!!!(2th June)
Nothing much to talk about. It’s all about my immature thinking and stupid anger but the whole way is just like the remake if my first semester of college life… I must try to endure… I know I can do this…
That, I just broke up with my first gf… And somehow, I get to know some rumours about her that she is with this guy… I got so damn pissed and went to find my friend to talk about it… She is my Kaur… I knew her at NS… So, I went to talk about her about this… It was like she can’t even be properly with one… then, what is the point she find a new one… That time I was just so pissed… Hmmmm… Still remember that is where I get to BBCC as well… Hahaha… the entrance of this monkey in my life…^^ She told me to move on and bla bla bla… (All those advice to those who broke up...lol…)
Wednesday(2th June)… I was on my way back from football… Even before I pass through that place, I got strong feeling that she will be with this guy… The new guy she is hanging out with… I never want to know anything about her… but ‘thanks’ to my friends... they will be actually like… Hey, darkangel… I saw BBCC there with a new guy… I saw them yesterday also… I saw her TBR with this guy… I saw her here and there with this guy… lol… Things that can make me feel sad as well as angry… Ok!! Come back to story… As I expected, she was there… And I was actually acted like an idiot and act like I didn’t even know her… Deep inside I was hoping she will atleast said a hello to me… Hmmmm… Nothing happen… She was just beside me with her friend and those guys… I walk as though don’t even know her at all!!! And this feeling seriously sucks!!! OMG… Can anyone answer why I am so dumb??? I enter the hostel and messaged her… I was hoping she will reply because it has been days since last she messaged properly… She replied this time… and haha… She said I wasn’t looking so she don’t want to disturb… lol… I saw her even before I reach that place… lol… this feeling sucks… But the whole it was my wrong… I was mood out after that… I messaged my kaur… I told her what happened… she asked me to move on and gave the same advice again… bla bla bla and bla… lol… It helps a lot… Thanks, Kaur…^^
On that evening, I actually saw her on her new Punjabi suit… the purple one… She was like promise to show me… I won’t forget the time when she actually wants to sew this shirt… OMG… She asked me for more than hundreds time whether she should sew this way or the other way…=.= haha… I was like want to see her with that dress so much also… hehe… Glad that I got the chance see her with that suit… She is still pretty as usual…^^ Keep it up… lol… She probably go temple with the guy that day or dunno what… Should be some occasion…
It was just the remake of my first semester… the difference now is that when I broke up with my first one, she actually did accompany me those sorrow night and listen to me and encourage me but there’s no one who can take over that place now… At the same time, I told myself… Time to forget the past… Time to move on, darkangel… I knew she is just friend with this guy… But something dies in me… Because I used to be that close with her… haha… but whatever lar… everything that happen got its own reason... I shouldn’t even care if she coupled up with this guy as well… It’s her life… And Darkangel, are you so damn free to think about others?? Mind your own business…^^
That, I just broke up with my first gf… And somehow, I get to know some rumours about her that she is with this guy… I got so damn pissed and went to find my friend to talk about it… She is my Kaur… I knew her at NS… So, I went to talk about her about this… It was like she can’t even be properly with one… then, what is the point she find a new one… That time I was just so pissed… Hmmmm… Still remember that is where I get to BBCC as well… Hahaha… the entrance of this monkey in my life…^^ She told me to move on and bla bla bla… (All those advice to those who broke up...lol…)
Wednesday(2th June)… I was on my way back from football… Even before I pass through that place, I got strong feeling that she will be with this guy… The new guy she is hanging out with… I never want to know anything about her… but ‘thanks’ to my friends... they will be actually like… Hey, darkangel… I saw BBCC there with a new guy… I saw them yesterday also… I saw her TBR with this guy… I saw her here and there with this guy… lol… Things that can make me feel sad as well as angry… Ok!! Come back to story… As I expected, she was there… And I was actually acted like an idiot and act like I didn’t even know her… Deep inside I was hoping she will atleast said a hello to me… Hmmmm… Nothing happen… She was just beside me with her friend and those guys… I walk as though don’t even know her at all!!! And this feeling seriously sucks!!! OMG… Can anyone answer why I am so dumb??? I enter the hostel and messaged her… I was hoping she will reply because it has been days since last she messaged properly… She replied this time… and haha… She said I wasn’t looking so she don’t want to disturb… lol… I saw her even before I reach that place… lol… this feeling sucks… But the whole it was my wrong… I was mood out after that… I messaged my kaur… I told her what happened… she asked me to move on and gave the same advice again… bla bla bla and bla… lol… It helps a lot… Thanks, Kaur…^^
On that evening, I actually saw her on her new Punjabi suit… the purple one… She was like promise to show me… I won’t forget the time when she actually wants to sew this shirt… OMG… She asked me for more than hundreds time whether she should sew this way or the other way…=.= haha… I was like want to see her with that dress so much also… hehe… Glad that I got the chance see her with that suit… She is still pretty as usual…^^ Keep it up… lol… She probably go temple with the guy that day or dunno what… Should be some occasion…
It was just the remake of my first semester… the difference now is that when I broke up with my first one, she actually did accompany me those sorrow night and listen to me and encourage me but there’s no one who can take over that place now… At the same time, I told myself… Time to forget the past… Time to move on, darkangel… I knew she is just friend with this guy… But something dies in me… Because I used to be that close with her… haha… but whatever lar… everything that happen got its own reason... I shouldn’t even care if she coupled up with this guy as well… It’s her life… And Darkangel, are you so damn free to think about others?? Mind your own business…^^
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