This happen on the last Sunday (16/5)… I fell down awfully on that stone field... Damn!!!I broke my wrist… and then some scratches on my knee… But believe me it sucks… I went back home and told my mom... lol… Haha… After a while, I went to take a bath… I turn on the water from the shower and stand there... That moment, I realize something… My leg and wrist was like seriously burning and freakingly pain... I was screaming in my bathroom… lol… But the pain seems to be nothing if compared to the pain inside my heart… That pain on my legs was not permanent… It was just for a while… But those pains in heart stays longer with you…^^ It makes you suffer and lastly make you cry for what you’ve done… Yes!!! I’m a loser… I’m regretting for every moments… Is not that you suck… It’s me… I’m the idiot!!! I’m happily admitting it… = (
Why will you want to compare yourself with Nantz??? You are just bringing back the memory… Haiz… This explanation is for you… You actually have to understand this… I’m not going to repeat this thing again… Nantz is someone that I don’t even want to look back in my life… That’s why I remove her from my friend list… And you is just different okay?? You are because I’m kept on looking at you and suffer… I can’t stop looking at your page… At where even after I removed you from my friend list, I’m still checking on you… Now, you understand the difference??? End of this chapter…
The next chapter… On the first day of college, I was hoping to meet you again... But why?? I couldn’t get an answer for this question…^^ I’m too noob.. Haiz… Anyway… As promise, I met you at somewhere Hibiscus Park… lol… I acted like I don’t wanna see ya… Hahaha… But all the way, I was trying to look at you… Failed… Tak nampak pun… Haiz… Shit… But nevermind lar… Maybe it’s better never see you…^^
I’m done as my promise… lol… 1st time, I won I guess… It’s like a great achievement in a very sad way… but nevermind… Atleast, this was my first win… first and last…^^ You said we will be a forever friend and a lot a lot stupid promises and hope… Especially those hope and promises that been made on the 2nd semester… I still remember… I knew it was all fake… But those hopes and promises was what hold me strong and make me live with those false hope... I said things won’t last long… But you want me to touch the wood… lol… hahaha… Saw what’s happening ryte now??? Lol… Yeah… I’m a sore winner… = (
I’m eating burger alone… I’m walking around hostel alone… Dinner with new and unusual environment… not used to it yet… lol.. just like everything alone… It’s not because of you… This is for sure… But it’s just because I lost my heart… It fell down somewhere and maybe to someone… Oh my heart!!! Where are you?? I need you… I do not know what this kinda feeling is known as… I just can’t describe it… Hmmmm… But my heart… Wherever you are… I will get you back one day… for sure!!! Eventhough if it’s in my next generation… I will be waiting and hunting for you… Until I get you fully one day…
I do not know why… I’m thinking of changing college ady… Hmmmm… Haiz… I have to figure out what to tell my mom… as well as I have to select college that I seriously I can afford to pay everything… Is it too late??? Hmmmm… I need someone to talk to… I lost feeling to this college ady… I’m no longer happy?? Should I just shut up and finish my course and go out… WTH?!! Why I am like no other chance?? Can someone help me get out from this crucial situation… I need someone now… Someone… Someone… But who huh?? lol... It’s ok…^^ Nvm… This is how thing should be ryte… Hmmm… KK…
Hey…. Your result coming out tomorrow… Dun worry… I prayed for you ady…^^ Everything gonna be good… I hope you do well… I hope you will be jumping all around the college happily tomorrow…^^ That’s my only wish for this moment… God, I hope you did listen to me today… I hope when someday I will get to know this great news from her… I’m really hoping she get an excellent result tmrw… God bless her…^^
The end of this blog… This blog was for me and myself… This is what I’m thinking at this moment… And yea... I forgot... This is the time i suppose to lepak at the centre of the hostel... OK... Bubye... Darkangel on his way to centre bench... The memorial place.. That's it for this blog...^^ Goodnight...
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