Second year starts… My problem is never been about me… First and for all, BBCK… Come back to her later…^^ Then, my results… It was good… Kinda disappointed with myself because I know I could do better… I still never change… For the whole 1st year, I’m telling the same thing to myself… I’m so dumb!!! Fish!!! Lol… This semester subject quite hard… I’ve to do my best… I am aiming for Aces…
In second year, it’s like so cool… I got juniors… Lol… Very nice… haha… Dunno how to tell these kinda feelings… Just happy lar… lol… 1st week itself, my problem with my course started… I get so pissed… A lot of problem in my head… Couldn’t let it out… I’m not like can tell anyone all my problems… I believe all my problems got no answer… And I cannot tell out my problems… I just love to hide it… I dunno why… I am like hunting for others attention… Aaargh… I’m so bad… I shouldn’t do that… I’ve made my besties worry about myself… I hope you all understand… I’m not okay… But I have to be okay… I’m just being so sad… very sad… and I can’t tell out all my problems… I don’t want to bother you guys’ life either… I’m not doing this on purpose… But I’m just at the death end figuring out a solution to get myself out of this hXXl… I’m very very sorry for being like this… I know you all also got problems… I’ll try my best to be with you all… And my Tachi… I hope you read this someday… I know things been far… I’m trying my best here for you… I know things look different for you… I’m figuring out to make things back to normal… I will do my best… I’m sorry for what I’ve done or even if I’ve hurt you by my words… I’m sorry… But I want you to know you owe me sorries too… I hope I could get a perfect time to talk to you personally… If you read it someday, I hope you know that this is what I feel ryte now… XY and CF… Don’t worry about me lar… I will be ok soon… Thanks…
Just like a blink of eye, one week of my fourth semester finished… OMG… I got a lot of things to do man… Hmmmm… Back to BBCC… I thought she is my only problem… Yea… She is still my only problem… 1st day itself, I felt so damn boring… Like lost something in my life… It was 1:30am… wanted to see whether if she is still alive… Hmmm… Yea… She was… I asked her to accompany me for a walk… We had a long talk… she was the one talking a lot as usual… And then, we eventually talk about our problems… Hmmmmm… Hahahaha… I was controlling my tears… Lol… She was calm only as though nothing happened… But I can see she got problems also… The second day, her result came out… she was so damn happy… She did it as what she said… Congratz again… She called me out for lunch… I didn’t wanna ruin her day… Went WM for our lunch… Was some happy hour… I, who told myself not to meet her was actually meeting her all the nights… We talk story… Those four days, I know that she got a lot of problem though… Hmmmm… I understand… I should stop bothering her with our problems… Our problems will never solve and at the same time it’s not a good time to talk about it… I should try to help her… Not to increase her pressure or tension… okay… I hope whatever problem you face you can get rid of it asap… I will pray for you… God will hear you and your problems… Hmmmm… I’m sorry… I would never add problem for you… Best wishes… I’m seriously sorry…
At this blog, I would like to say sorry to everyone whoever I‘ve hurt you all before… I am sorry… And as I said, I’m going to do better and be better as well… I got a life… I must improve myself… This semester, I going to study like a nerd…^^ Yeah… Lol… I’m sorry again to everyone… And I’m sad for being who I am… Very sad… This is who I am recently… I am very sad… Hoping my friends can be beside me but I just can’t tell out my problems… Haiz… It has been so hard for me… Hmmmm…
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